Life concerned by faith

Probably

2010-05-01T20:14:00.008+08:00

Our Teddy Bears :D

Teddy @ work

My Tattoo

The Moment

Woohoo... I love you lah girlfriend!

3 days ago went for my fishing trip off South China Sea!

Greatest sea experience ever.. Gerek uh!

Caught a few fish, cause not a good angler anyway...

The night sea was freaking scary!

Our boat was like capsizing.. I was like "Oh fuck! "

But it was so so cool!

During the trip I miss Baby so much!

What if I'm gone for my 2 weeks lighthouse duty.. :(

Rindu!!

They planning on a Terengganu trip.. 6 days!

Woohh... dunnoe wanna go or not..

Anyway, 2 days I've been called back for work due to operations!

To protect and uphold the law of the sea!

I love my job! Not for got called back but for the job!

I passed my Police Boat Licence! My uniform now has a block anchor!

No more white deckhand anchor! I'm a Steersman now!

Next up! Red anchor! Coxwain!! pronounce as Cockz sen! hahaha

I know my post like so jumble up and random.

I'll have a proper update soon. My head kinda dizzy now.

Toodles, I think wanna head to STARBUCKS..

Ayeen! :D

Like gunshots heard against the silent night.

My love is louder than these words.

They're stronger than the rest, unstoppable

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-I love baby girl, so much-

2010-04-10T14:54:00.004+08:00

Just for you, You matter most :D. Even when I'm angry with you.

Is it so hard to understand me?

No matter what, I still love you.

You really need to talk to me.

Cause I don't like the way you're ignoring me now.

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-I'm down yet you don't care-

After so long

2010-03-27T15:34:00.007+08:00

I love you from the first time I met you
and my love for you is growing bigger day by day
Eventhough I have to wait until hundred years,
I'll wait for you because I'm sure you're meant for me

Its been a long long time since I've updated this blog
Ever thought of closing it down but someone won't let.
Part of life will be written here in this blog.
The other part of it will remain in me.

Yesterday went S.A.M. Singapore Arts Museum
to watch my bro and friends perform and to try out my camera.
So yar, Dass help me to configure my cam.Had so fun with those peeps.
The performance was alright. The day seems fast.
By the way last Thursday was the 25th... I like :)

Somebody's sleeping...

Got to clean my room. She told me not to be moody. But she's moddy -.-
Nevermind. Thats love.

Love makes you do stuffs you never imagine you can.
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-Gawd!, I love you so much-

Distant

2010-01-28T15:01:00.004+08:00

Hey..

You're special.

It takes more then a year to really make it official. Does it mean we have to change? Yeah probably a bit. What more do I have to ask for?

Just for you, you're amazing.

I love you.

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-For better or worst-

Heartsick

2010-01-12T12:18:00.002+08:00

Ignorance is your new bestfriend.

I'm strong. I'm not weak.
Seriously I'm living on a prayer.
All I need now is to be myself.

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-You're mean-

Happy New Year

2010-01-05T17:59:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year! Its 2010.

2009, the past.. Full of Ups and Downs.
The year I got my service number, T09715
Memories, good ones will be kept bad one will try to delete.

New Year, New resolution. The old one still some not completed but
will bring forward. I wanna fulfill my dreams.
What I have I will cherish. A few stuffs I dream of now I've achieved.

Thank you everyone who've been there for me all along. Thank you so much.

Now I'm gonna start thinking ahead, think straight. Be open minded.
I won't emo so much. I'm wanna be nice. Coz I'm not nice, ryte Ayeen?

So I need to go get some fresh air.
Update more soon.

Loves.

Kasih kita ditakdirkan bersama takkan engkau ku persiakan.
Walau kekadang hati mudah terunsing oleh mu.
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-Love you so much AnGeL-

Seeking

2009-12-27T12:02:00.003+08:00

Sunset, not that nice but the view just soothing.

I dont mind where you come from as long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare to fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same

And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by till you decide to come
But in between it always seems too long
I have the will, to breathe you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am

Wrong or Right, Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same

In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same

This is hard, but I'm holding on. Just for you.

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-In love with my bestfriend-

Dead away

2009-12-21T23:33:00.004+08:00

Peekchures at wavehouse.. Suppose to be 12 of us but only 5 came early..
We came from work straight and it was awesome!

Went to watch Avatar yesterday. Nice movie or should I say awesome.
People, gotta catch it alryte.

Busy for past few days. Hell of a bad week. Too many going through my mind.
Need to start worrying less.

I'm now going through some bad phase of life. Pull through please.
Till now I still need to listen to sad songs to cheer me up.

I know its been awhile since I've updated. Up there mess up so
its hard to think.

Some people just don't know how hard my life is.
Going through the same pain over and over again.
But it doesn't matter anymore. I'm strong and I know you are to.
Starting fresh and starting new.

I wanna open up a new diary and burn the old one.
Too much hatred and too many F words.
New diary gonna be clean with lots of love.
It gonna start with:

Dear Diary,

and end with.

You and only you.

Nothing much to update. Gonna tweet more.
Any updates about me check my tweets.

My heart is yours, to fill or burst,
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.
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-Love me like you mean it-

Living High

2009-12-09T22:10:00.003+08:00

One night a guy & a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them.

The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note.

At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street.

He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy.Miraculously, the girl survived.

Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it , it said “Without your love, I would die.”

Love isn't as easy as 1,2,3. <3

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-My one and only-

Chuck

2009-12-01T19:54:00.003+08:00

My prized possession, one and only
I adore you, girl I want you
The one I can't live without
That's you, your my precious little lady
The one that makes me crazy
Of all the girls I've ever known
It's you

Just random peekchures. Just feel like putting it. I'm bored.
Like finally I'm done with my CHUCK series.
Now waiting for season 3. Finally Chuck becomes a spy. Nice~

Told A'in to watch. Not forcing you ryte.
Yesterday was fun. Youtube browsing with A'in.
Weird lah, coz how it came to that activity I don't really know.
Then it was on the phone with webcam thingy.
Fun weird activity.

I'm sorry that I made u stay up late. It was your fault too coz ur not tired.
I think I wanna go for night jog again. Kinda fun and keeps me fit.
I guess I update soon.

Quoted from someone, Thanks for being patient with me all this while.
And I love you for that.

To someone, iloveyou and I do.

I always knew you were the best
The coolest girl I know
Prettier than all the rest
The star of the show
So many times I wish you'd be the one for me
Your who I'm thinking of
Girl, your my runner up and no matter what your always number one
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-You and I-

Promises

2009-11-21T17:17:00.004+08:00

My day, started off quite bad. Woke up like at 11 I think.
Look at my phone and saw one message. Was hoping it was from you but ...
From James telling me about his 21st B'dae bash at some place next weekend.
Too bad I'm working bro. Sorry.

Yesterday went to FICO with Bravo. Penat giler!
It was fun. We played from 11pm till 1am. Reached home about 2.3oam.
First thing I did was going online and I just feel like going offline after that.
I do need a bullet proof heart. I wore bulletproof vest for work I need a mini heart one.

Tonight my Night shift. Love my job. I'm gonna count stars tonight.
Maybe that'll help to destress. Night skies are always the best.
And the brightest star out there always remind me of you.
If only you remember..

I haven't pack and still waiting for my Chuck episodes to complete.
Update tomorrow perhaps.

Toodles~

Favour uh, tag bleh tak?

You have so many suitors, am I the one stopping you?
I'm sorry if I am. If I'm not and you feel like leaving,
I can't do anything more. I did enough.
And it hurts if I force you to stay.
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-Sorry I'm hurt, sorry for everything-

Baby Girl

2009-11-18T21:48:00.004+08:00

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see cause I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying
Cause I ain't giving up on love.

Second post for the day. The whole day was boring. Nothing to do.
Raining but I can't seem to sleep. I don't know why.
Alot of people are making their blog private. I find it weird.

I hate coincidence and stuffs like that. I'm gonna hear this word
real soon.

I think you gonna make your blog private. For what?
K, your choice.

All the best to Fezo and Yati for your upcoming exams.
Don't tell me I'm enjoying my life. It suck at times.
and I just don't care.
I don't wanna be someone who when you need than you find.
I've made you and important one in my life.

I Love You, that's sacred. Only to a special one you'll say it.

Any guy can love a million girls,
only a real guy can love a girl a million ways
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-Baby Boy misses Baby Girl-

Life's a peach

2009-11-18T17:02:00.008+08:00

Sungguh indahnya hari berlalu

Menunggu kasih tambatan hati

Ingin rasanya ku selalu berbagi bersamanya kala suatu hari nanti

Andainya kau jadi milikku, selalu ku nyanyikan lagu rindu

Andaikan kau dan aku bersatu, dunia ini berseri selalu

Ku ingin dirimu dekat di hatiku berdua kita kan raih bahagia

Ku ingin dirimu turut merasa rindu untuk menatap matamu

Bagaikan bintang yang jauh disana, terangi malam yang semakin gelap

Jika kau sudi menemaniku takkan ku lepas walau sedetik pun.

A random post.

For someone who've been there for me..

Thank you...

So wanna run in the rain! I've dance, swim in the rain.

I wanna do it!

Update when I get back from running.

Anyway, Rockband rocks! Played just now and I like the drums.

You just don't know what I'm going through. You've never asked.

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-It's tough being me-

2009-11-17T15:12:00.002+08:00

To really love someone, to understand her

You gotta know her deep inside, hear every thought

See every dream and give her wings when she wants to fly.

When you love someone you tell her that she's really wanted

When you love someone you tell her that she's the one

She needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever

You got to give her some faith and hold her tight

You got to treat her right cause she'll be there for you.

So tell me, have you ever really love someone?

Few days back went to catch 2012. China made products seriously proven to Man.

It saved Mankind. Movie was nice only the ending kinda sucky. Waiting for New Moon

in cinema.

Its not nice to get bullied by Sha and Yati. They're dangerous. And when you have

a friend who just watches me helplessy got bullied. Mean!! Hafeez kau not nice!

But enjoyed my day. After that saw Ika and I think she was pretty pissed with Feez

and Yati. For some reason only they know. We headed to Mad Jack after movie.

The food was okay but I like Sha's platter thingy. Serves 3-4 people but

she had it all for herself. Hahaha.

And finally got myself a long sleeve shirt coz I don't have one.

A costly one but it look kinda nice.

Tonight gonna be a working night and on patrol. Yea! I wanna see meteor

shower tonight. Just read yahoo news and it'll be happening around 1 to 5am.

But causeway is so bright. How to see...

Tomorrow after work they're planning to go to wavehouse at Sentosa.

Surfing babeh! But I don't know whether I wanna go.

See how.

Lastly, You!

Finally after like so long we got to talk. But I was tired so it was

short. Was it?

But I miss you alot... And I know I won. Right?

I so wanna update more but brain juice dah bis. Need to refill.

Update soon.

Toodles~

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-Baby girl-

One Time (:

2009-11-02T18:29:00.005+08:00

Err hi Hilmiee (:
Sorry i went into your account without you knowing . Tkmo mrh pleasee (:
i didnt knw i could still remember your account . hee .
Dont get angry with me please ? :D
Dont knw wht to say uh . heee . Jst wanted to post here because daa lamer tk ckp pape (:
I suddenly got ths idea to post something over here to try to make you smile .
Hilmie , sorry for what happened recently . ):
anw Smilee uh . Dont what mind fucked everyth all anymore uh .
Take a chill pill (: hehe . and whn you chat , please no more short answers ! -.-
Mr VC :D
So okaay . Daa tk tau aper nk ckp .
bbye .
takecare .
love ,
ayeeen ♥

; i miss you . RINDUUUUUU .

2009-11-01T01:29:00.005+08:00

It seems like monsoon season comes early.

I'm like so sick for past few days.

I'm tired. I'm restless.

I guess I need to rest.

Jealousy kills. I've learned my lesson.

Take care~

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-I'm sorry-

Irreplaceable

2009-10-27T22:59:00.004+08:00

My world revolves around you.

My one love, my one heart, my one life for sure.
Let me tell you one time, girl I love You

I'm tired and sick.

Nitez.

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-My one stubborn girl, loves -

My one and only

2009-10-25T16:50:00.005+08:00

Dearest Ayeen.. I'm so sorry for being angry

This always happen.

Do you think I'm gonna give up easily?

You've always been my one and only.

Its hard to trust people.

There's still that scar.

But I'm trying hard to forget.

It will eventually.

I didn't say I didn't trust you.

The fact is I trust you so much.

I've given my whole heart to you.

Did I told you before I'll sacrfice

everything just to be with you.

What matters to me is you by my side.

That's all I want.

The previous post was my moment of anger.

I'm not suppose to. But it just got into me.

Maybe I just want all your attention?

I'm selfish. I'm sorry

I've snapped out of it.

Can you let that moment of anger go away?

Will you forgive me? And forget what happened?

Will you?

Its my request from you.

I don't want us to quarrel.

I don't want us to fight.

I just wanna be with you.

I'm sorry.

Awak, Kiter mintak maaf.

Sincerely. I apologise.

How can I ever be angry with you?

When you're the water that cools me down.

My one and only, that's you.

We're gonna go Paris together. That's our dream remember?

Nur A'in Bte Aziz, I love you so freaking much

I love you. Nothing less.

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-My Angel, always-

unfair

2009-10-25T14:18:00.025+08:00


Your world is my world And my fight is your fight 
My breath is your breath And my heart is yours.  


Why do I feel this way? The first thing I do when
I went online is feeling fcuked. 
I don't have to ryte actually but whatever luh. 

Maybe no one understands what I'm trying to say. 
But I guess you know. YOU. Yes you... Its not my concern. I know.
You can do whatever you want right? 
So just ignore me if I'm angry.
Cause can I say I just don't like him?

Maybe you don't understand my point. 
I can't make it any simpler. 
The simpler I try to explain, the more hurt I might inflict onto myself. 
And perhaps to you too. So it's your life.

If the whole night yesterday I was waiting for you. 
Don't you know that? 

My buddy even asked,"Mie, what's wrong?" 
My reply,"Tired... Too tired to think uh"

Atleast he cheered me up with
his jokes and our sing-along session.

If ever anything that's gonna hurt me or sumthing, 
I just can feel it on the day itself. 
I had this instinct. 
When you can feel something bad gonna happen. 
But this instinct do make me stronger. 

I've once picked  up the broken pieces. 
And I never want to pick up any shattered pieces of my heart again. 
This is so random and might not have any link to this post.  

But its a post anyway, expressing half of myself here. And the other half in my lifebook. 

I don't hate you. Should I be angry? Why should I. 
You can do whatever you like. 

A friend told me before girls make guys bad.
I really don't get him. 

Maybe guys who bottled up his emotion too long,
will eventually  let it go when he reach his limit. 
But is there really any limits to emotions. 
People might just bottle it up. 
Keep bottling it and won't know when it'll be filled up.

I told my friends about you. 
I told them you're my one and only.
I even defended you when my friends don't think you're that One.
I'm telling you this cause I've never told you before.
I'm telling you now cause maybe you're suppose to know this. 

Don't you? 

Its a long freaking post. I think I should stop. 
Feels like going Vivo.  

Ciaoz~


One love,My one heart My one life for sure    
You'll be my number one girl 
Always makin time for you 

Let me tell you one time, 
Girl I love you

Sweet~

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-Understand me-

My heart beats for only you

2009-10-15T21:44:00.003+08:00

I'm tired.

Awak.. I'm missing you.

I miss your voice lah..

Dragonboat training really really takes up 80% of my daily energy.

Tomorrow need to motivate myself to run 5km.

I'm getting bigger then Big Momma.

Like Zack says, "You have to motivate yourself, Perservere"

Whatever Zack.. Your training killed us!

Clement and Firdaus half dead. Bangla only one still hype.

Standby for death row on next training.

I'm hungry. Gonna grab something at MacD.

Toodles~

Baby, 8 years.. remember..

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-Remember our promise-

Chill

2009-10-11T12:08:00.002+08:00

9th Oct, celebrated B'dae, First with Yati and Hafeez.. They came over to my place to surprise me.. So sweet... Thanx for the Naughty G... and that so sexy lamp. Korang nice..
After wash up, Me and Yati grab a late lunch at causewaypoint. Met Secondary peeps.
Cut the details, I had fun!

Yesterday, went to Juliet Sha's Open house with Alep.. It was her dad's b'dae too.
So when everything is over, its like almost 10. Head home and turned in quite
early cause Kinda angry with someone. She turned in early too I think.
Eventhough how angry I'm with her, I love her so much uh..

Thank you so much for the wishes! Thank you so much for the gifts!

Thanks Yati! Thanks Hafeez! Thanks Sharifah! Thanks Juliet Sha!
Thank you everyone..... Love you all!!

Gonna go out soon to meet cuzzy and Feez... Update more soon.

I Love the watch luh babe! Thanx!

Toodles~
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I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long since I've heard the sound my only hope
This time I will be listening.

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
This heart is yours

Please don't go now, please don't fade away

How hard it feels to be angry with you.
You don't know how much I love you.
One more month and 12 days and it'll be a year...

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-Angel loves her birthday boy-

Happy Birthday

2009-10-04T15:41:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Sharifah !

Enjoy your day aite! Dah wish k yesterday..

I'm updating coz its a freaking Sunday and sis let me use her lappy.
Today supposedly going out with my Seoul garden peeps but my leave
not approve so gotta go to work and training later.

Penat uh! 2 weeks I don't feel too good. Thanx Yati for being there
to hear my rants. Thanx Feez for everything. A bestfriend indeed.
And to the people out there who've been motivating me all this while,
Thank You so much! Love you all!

I have to make it a short update cause friends coming over to visit.

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I'm everything you know, you wonder friend or foe.
I'm the burning in your throat when you swollow
but when you spit me out your stomach full of doubt
and still you're faking every word out of your mouth

But you won't let go
It's all about control
Understand I'm born to lead you will follow

I don't wanna stay, I'm running away

I won't forget the way you made me feel
I won't regret running away from here

Now it's there to see

You've forgotten me

Ever since I was the prince among the theives
So you hold me down, strip away my crown
Can't contain me knowing all the truth I've found

Always thinking small
Helping me to fall
Now your jealousy and hate consumes us all
I don't wanna stay and I'm running away
Don't you hear me when I say...

Goodbye

So long

Nice try

I'm gone

You don't like being second

I don't like being wrong

You think you see the world, but you see nothing
Time is only gonna make it worse in the end

Don't hit me with your fears
I don't fit with your ideas
You missed what I'm about
I earned my way out
And in the end
You say goodbye again

The fear of losing you really hurts but assuming stuffs ain't the right way.
I'm nothing more then a stranger to you now. My love for you is so strong.
Nothing will ever come in my way to ever leave you. Only you have the choice
to leave me.
You never know...

This is so emo-shit... Last warning stop it!
K merepek..

Toodles~
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-Do you still love me?-

Fall For You

2009-09-16T23:02:00.004+08:00

Now that I've lost everthing to you

You say you want to start something new and it's breaking

my heart that your leaving

Baby I'm grieving but if you wanna leave take good care

I hope you have a lot of nice things to wear but than a lot of nice

things turn bad out there

It's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile girl
I'll always remember you just like a child girl

You know I've seen alot of what the world can do and it's breaking

my heart in two because I never wanna see you a sad girl don't be a bad girl now
but if you wanna leave take good care

I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there but just remember

there's a lot bad everywhere

Geylang Serai, boring.

The same like every year. Prices increase. And its stuffy.

In the end bought nothing. Didn't buy the blue baju kurung that

someone suggest to buy :(. But gonna ask my mom buy it.

Fasting month this year seems so fast. Reaching the end already.

Raya falls on Sunday. Long weekend.Not for me. I have to take

leave on Monday. Hoping for a great Hari Raya this year.

Anyway, some guy wrote a song for someone. Title, I'm watching over you.

This is random but yar. Finally that song completed.

And yesterday finally we get to talk. After 3 days? I know you miss me.

We had fun for the almost 3+ hours I think.

But the ending was kind of crap. I sleep talk. Finally you got to hear

me sleep talking.

1+1= Me and You. Got that Ayeen?

I'm craving for Mega McSpicy now.

Take care!

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-Ey! I love you more k-

Random

2009-09-08T23:33:00.001+08:00

Avatar!

That VS fragrance ^_^

09/09/09...

Yupz in a few minutes..

Cool date but I prefer next year 10/10/10.. Meaningful date.

Today quite bored. Nothing much happened. Went out awhile.

Reached home watched Avatar and do abit of house cleaning and back

to avatar. Gonna complete watching it maybe tomorrow.

Now watching and updating.

Post kinda lame cause nothing much really happen. Gonna go Comex to

get stuffs and I think gonna buy a macbook. So Hafeez and Me can Mac

together. Alot of stuffs I wanna buy. DSLR camera, external HD, earpiece.

Alot.... Resume my driving lessons.

Hmmm So wanna get a car so soon.

Need to do house cleaning, buy stuffs for Raya. Ayeen inspired me to clean my room.

Wanna make my bro clean the room and I go watch DvD. Right Ayeen?

I'll update more soon...

I so wanna talk to you :D

Toodles~

ILoveYouToo ^_^

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-Part of me-

ily♥

2009-09-02T14:39:00.000+08:00

Victoria Secret's. Nice or wat!

Victoria Secrets Red

Meeting you was fate

Becoming your friend was a choice

But falling in love with you,

was completely out of my control

Loves,

Gonna find any shop selling Victoria's Secret products! Right Ayeen?

Another update after like a long time.

Everyone seems to be busy now. And I started working.

Back to LCK Regional Base. Police Coast Guard Baby!

Glad to hear Alien got into Coast Guard too.

Supposed to sent him to Brani base. Just afraid he might take the bus to Sentosa rather

then the bus to brani. I bet he gonna enjoy life at Brani for that 2 and half month training.

Coz it was like a chalet for me there. Swimming pool, gym, Sports hall got water heater

summore. All the same level with our rooms. My window facing sentosa. If walking

towards our bathroom and parade square, face the open sea. Cool or what..

Its more a relaxing place than a training complex.

I miss Pulau Brani!

Oraite.. Past few weeks nothing much happened.A'in going online occasionally.

So have to bare with it.

Buka-ing at base is fun. Someone sure will do stupid stuffs just after Azan.

Like last nite shift. A friend of mine hit the TV coz the picture was blur. That day

got Michael Jackson performance so he wana watch. In the end from blurr the whole

TV went blank. Best uh!

So tonight buka-ing at base. I think I gonna fry rice aka Fried Rice and something uh.

Gonna start preparing my ingredients. Update more soon.

Awak! I've updated k...

Yesterday night best uh bual kat phone... K done.

imissyou♥

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-I just can't escape this love-

Loves

2009-08-11T00:53:00.004+08:00

Guarding the Coast

I love Teddy! From you

I love 9th of August 2009.

Will say abit of it coz I'll update more later perhaps.

Just so happy gotta spend time with you.

From the time I met you, sat with you watching the parade,
and the walk down Clifford Pier toward Raffles MRT...

My favourite moments with you. Loves <3

Update more later..

Tonight the music seems so loud

I wish that we could lose this crowd

Maybe it's better this way

We'd hurt each other with the things we'd want to say

But no matter what, I just love you so much

________________________________________________________________

-Careless whisper-

You make me, me

2009-08-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

You may not be her first, her last or her only.
She loved before and she may love again,
but if she loves you now,
what else matter?

She's not perfect,
you aren't either and the two of you may never be perfect together
but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice
and admit to being human and making mistakes,
hold on to her and give her the most you can.

She may not be thinking of you every second of the day,
but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break 'her heart'.
So don't hurt her, don't change her,
don't analyse her and don't expect more than she can give.

Smile when she makes you happy,
let her know when she makes you mad
miss her when she's not there.

Just simple, short and meaningful.
The main thing I've updated right someone?

I miss the random Monday. The cat and I love The teddy bear.
You make me become a little kid.

Update more soon..
Gotta go..

Toodles~
____________________________________________________________________

-Don't want you to change-

2009-07-31T23:37:00.005+08:00

So Hello . Ayeen here :D Im helping Hilmie update his blog because he said he cant log in -.- hahah . Okaaay . So he suggested tht i update abt how we met . *ehem* hahah ! Okaay so lets start . Ths will be my side of the story . Like composition alr -.- :D
It was the 23rd of November 2oo8 . Its Sunday ard 3pm . My family and I went to ths wedding invitation at Yishun . Saw ths guy wearing red shirt with vest uh . Thn skipskipskip . ( can skip ey Hilmie :D ) One of the girl ask me fr my number as well as my sister's . And thn ths guy texted me . And tht was how we met . hahaha ! Short and sweeeet right ? :D So the following meeting all cannot tell . Secret :D And im done ! Is ths enough Mr vertically challenged ? :D At least got update hor :D
takecare readers .
; ayeen ♥

Merci

2009-07-27T22:06:00.002+08:00

My Team

My Idol

Destress Session

I got my watch back.. I miss you watch..
I know Shaq misses her watch too..
Happy ah got your watch back, and its 10mins faster.
So you won't be late..

My watch gone through alot with Shaq. Pity you..
Nanti rest K my dearest Watch.
Nothing much to update..

I'll do a proper update soon.

When you feel your heart's guarded
And when you see the break's started
And when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

And when your tears are dry from crying
And when the worlds turned silent
So when the clouds have all departed
You will be right here with me

I will be here right beside you
Every step you take
I will be your strength, your shelter
Shield you from the rain

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-I will be right here with you-

2009-07-23T23:58:00.006+08:00

This is Miss Ayeen ^_^

My fav pic...

I'm posting this coz I feel like posting.The one that's posting this post is not me.And this post is for that someone.Merepek tapi benar.

Lets start off..

Met AyEeN yesterday. After 2 months den I pass her the card.But before that when I was webcaming with her I did show her already.What card? Her creatively designed card. One of the best I've made.See, special ryte for you? Hahaha

On the way to meet her, met my dearest cousin Zubbyfly.Without asking she knows where I'm going.Pandai, macam tupai. K..

Cuzzy alight at Bukit Panjang and I continued my journey.Reached her station alight and go grab my brunch cum dinner.Met her, for awhile, her sister was there so kinda awkward.Didn't get to talk much. Anyway I really miss her.

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder

Glad that she liked the card. Took me a few er.. days to complete it.

Today I woke up like at 6.30am. Pray and bathe.From 7am till 11am I was watching My A7X LBC DvDand my MUSE DvD. Both bands perform live baik giler..Awesome performance!Hope one day they can perform together in Singapore.Watched A7X in s'pore but missed MUSE coz I wasinvolved in NDP 2007.

From 11 to 2, I slept. My cat woke me up.The whole day was like boring!Not working the whole week. Waiting for my posting still Its either Coast Guard or Special Operation Command.Aiming for STAR or STS. I wanna be a specialist and a train sniper!

K.. dream can be achieve right?

Hey awak! I wanna talk to you otp...

And i still remember when we're talking otp i asked you what will u do if I sleep on the phone. U said "I'll take a picture of you sleeping"That's sleep talk babe...

You're cute when you sleep talk.

K.. I merepek enough already.

Toodles~

Tags:

Farah: Blogger got problem ah... And I've updated already again

SHaQQQ: Yeah I'm the kitten remember?

AyEeN: Baru nak tag... Aper sey

___________________________________________________________________________ -I love you today, tomorrow, forever-

Sick

2009-07-17T20:59:00.006+08:00

Random pics... Webcam

Another webcam pic

Firstly, shout out to my lil sis....

Happy Birthday!! You're getting older!!

Tomorrow we celebrate k... If i get well ah..

I think I'm sick..

Temperature rising to 38 degrees.. I think it will rise some more.
Tomorrow got high chance no need to go work or even attend Kenduri
at aunt's place. And also celebrate my sis B'dae!! Get well Hilmie...

Today, Hmmm.. At work my legs start to wobble. K it feels so weak.
Sazzee keep asking me whether I'm okay. I'm not but have to be okay.
Cannot fall sick on Monday and Wednesday. Important day.
My fingerprint session and appointment ceremony.

I think I need panadol in 2 hours time.. I just took 2 around 3pm.
Just got to know my cousin's pregnant!!
The wedding you went to Ayeen.. Remember??

Okie random.

Just now was fun. Webcam-ing with Ayeen and her friend I think.
Merepek but at least you cheered me up.
I think I'll update soon.
And my ipod's like going nuts... Need to reformat..

K... Toodles!

I'm sorry again. Have you forgiven me?
You know I've always love you.
I don't want to fall again.
You're my precious gem that will keep shinning even in the dark.

____________________________________________________________________

-you make me wonder-

Random

2009-07-13T00:09:00.008+08:00

This is totally random

The Apaches, carrying the S'pore Flag

Band of Brothers

Infront of Dhoby Ghaut MRT at 1am

Sunset At CityHall

Another update after so so long....

Today went out awhile then head back home around 7.

Someone seems busy so went to play soccer with L4D clique.

Had alot of fun. Soccer is always fun.

Had supper with them at Mac and head back home. Normal day.

Yesterday was fun. But coz I'm tired I think the fun level dropped.

I'll miss the "Bapok voice" the "Selenger Moments" and the randomness.

I like Yesterday! Or should I say Saturday. K fun...

This post is just another random post cause I'm in emo mode.

No, jiwang mode....

Sorry for being random. But that's just me now.

And thanx Mama Cat for that fun-filled Saturday and those "Slengs moments"

Hehehe...

K .. gonna post random pics.. But at the top.

Take care..

Things that you say,

The way you laugh,

The way you look at me

Everytime you stole my breath

You make me, me...

Those are just part of the long list.

You know I miss you.

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-My every breath, my every heartbeat-

All the same

2009-06-26T01:47:00.002+08:00

After so long.. I finally feel like posting.
Maybe this gonna be a wordy one.

I've been busy with work and stuffs. Been working my ass off.
6 Days weekly. Happening or wat..
Past few weeks been a terrible week. Been missing my bed so much cause,
I'm either not sleeping or just taking naps on my sofa.

If only life has a reboot button, how I can reset everything from falling into pieces.

My dearest friend, if you still consider me a friend, do you know who're you
going out with?
I know going out with my ex is nothing to you. Cause she's just an EX.
But you're the one who once wanted me to patch up with her and now.
But what the hell... I don't care lah but you, as a good friend should have atleast tell me or something . Not me getting to know through someone else. If you still consider me
a good friend.

I thought I trust you now friend, you're just weird. To Ex GF, you're so bitchy as always.
Letting you in my life once I thought was the best thing that had ever happened to me,
but its like the worst thing. Bitching about me with my friends and you've turned
my life upside down. I can't get over you before but now you just make it easier for me.

I hope you just stop bitching about me or maybe just stop being a bitch.
To my dearest Bestfriend, thank you for all your help. Its so nice of you.

Now since my life is like junk.. I really need a break.

Need a short break and some fresh air.

Chill~ I know a crappy post but rather let it out here.

I dont mind where you come from as long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare to fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here
________________________________________________________________________________

-Can we be like before-

Happy B'day

2009-05-21T11:59:00.005+08:00

Firstly, HaPPy BirThDaY AyeEN!! I sang to you already arh k..
May all those wishes you wish for comes true.
Don't make your b'day like a normal day. Go do something fun!
And you're mean..

You told me to update tomorrow? Nah today I wanna update coz its 21st May ^_^

I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you

No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
I'd crawl acroos this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, you know i'll always come for you
No one but you.

For the past few weeks didn't update due to some complications.
Yeah, busy and lazy both combine together. But that past few weeks
were so hectic. Accompany my friend for Anugerah, work, 2 BBQs, a few outings
and a lot more. Kinda busy but some people asked why I'm so free coz
they kept seeing me online. I was using my Ipod to go online while on the move.
so thats why I'm online almost everyday.

Yesterday played soccer for my Coast Guard team and we lost. 4-0.
We were out of shape. But still I think we played well. Got to meet my old team.
A few new faces. Wahyudi changed team to Charlie, Ken got promoted to Senior Staff,
Akai and Baie still the same. And Shafirul getting bigger. But all I miss them.

Chill out with them for like 3 hours at Turf City. Chit Chat with my batch, Jeff and Jun Han.
Jun Han got into NTU and Jeff in SIM. Smart people.

Back home, Finished my project. Need to hand in by Friday.
Wished someone Happy B'dae. And that someone being mean at the end.
Thanks Ah!

And I write enough rubbish and will write more soon. Confirm!
Below are just 2 random peekchures

Need to do final touch up for the project. And Anyway, Kris Allen won!!

Toodles~
_________________________________________________________________

-♥You make me hang up♥-

Akan kau menjadi milikku?

2009-04-21T01:40:00.003+08:00

Bila mungkin kau lihat aku menanti dirimu
Bila mungkin dirimu ada di samping diriku
Bilakah jadi milikku?

Mungkinkah jadi milikku?
Mungkinkah dirinya ada di depan mataku?
Bila mungkin terjadi pasti itu hanya mimpi

Semakin ku kejar, semakin kau jauh
Tak pernah letih untuk mendapatkan mu
Terus berlari namun ku takut terjatuh lagi
Tak ingin lagi membuat ku perih
Sadarkan aku dari mimpiku

I'll update about the Saturday gig once I get peekchures.
I'm so tired. Tomorrow need to wake up early. I mean later today.

Watched Iron Chef America just now and it makes me hungry.
And we did kicked ass on saturday. Awesome gig and performance by us.
Thank you fellow comrades. We achieved something didn't we?

Update later.

Below just a random video from my youtube account favorites.
I dunnoe why I put it as favorites.

Toodles

Tag:
ShaQQQ-Random as always. Get well soon!! Don't overdoze cough syrup
Farah-Gig was great and I also dunnoe what i tagged.
Feez-We kicked freaking ass. Who's the best bassist? Hahaha. Kidding
Sha-Thanx for the GL wish.. I was thinking so hard what GL stands for. Nw i noe

To someone, Sorry.
____________________________________________________________________

-I cried thinking of you-

Another one

2009-04-17T15:42:00.004+08:00

Me and Azri

My Band

Us, Serious business

You and I must make a pact, we must bring salvation back
Where there is love, I'll be there I'll reach out my hand to you,
I'll have faith in all you do
Just call my name and I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you,
Build my world of dreams around you,
I'm so glad that I found you
I'll be there with a love that's strong
I'll be your strength, Ill keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness, well that's all I'm after
Whenever you need me,
Ill be there I'll be there to protect you, with an unselfish love that respects you
Just call my name and I'll be there

If you should ever find someone new,
I know he'd better be good to you cause if he doesn't,
I'll be there
Just look over your shoulders, I'll be there

^_^

Tomorrow will be my extraordinary GiG.
After a few practices, I think we nailed all the songs.
And hope we can give a good show. *Pray Hard*
Tonight will be our last practice, just to get the hang of the gig room.

Few days nth much happened. Just normal procedures.
Doing the daily routine and all.Next month my routine will change.
I think. Back to shift work. 2 days work 2 days off. Yey!!

Nothing much to update..
Update after the gig tomorrow probably..

Toodles~
I wanna be a part of you, not apart from you.
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-Never will I change-

2009-04-13T00:35:00.003+08:00

For Freedom

Ku rasa getaran cinta di setiap tatapan matanya
Andai ku cuba untuk berpaling akankah sanggup ku hadapi kenyataan ini
Walaupun terasa indah andaikan ku dapat juga dirinya
Namun ku harus tetap bertahan menjaga cinta yang telah lebih dulu ku jalani cinta kepadanya

Oh tuhan tolonglah aku
Jangan lah kau biarkan diriku
Jatuh cinta kepadanya

Sebab andai itu terjadi
Akan ada hati yang terluka
Tuhan tolong diriku

Some things are meant to be forgotten but some things aren't. Some will leave a scar and never be erase.

I've been having lots of weird dreams lately. So weird that at times
I laugh and at times I cried.

Nevermind the dreams.

Weekdays been sitting at home cause don't wanna miss my favourite show.
1730hrs will be my happy hour. I'll glue myself infront of the teevee with
my cup of MiLo and Oreo. The first indon sinetron that I'm so into.
Anyway the title of the sinetron is Kepompong.
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3 days ago went to restring my bass and now it sounded so raw. So uncool.
Maybe it needs seasoning.
Been writing songs that's so emo. Half of it about an angel and the rest
are random ones.

If only I can sing it to someone. Heh.. Not!

I guess this random update will be accompanied by another update soon.

Toodles~

To you, do you still remember what we promised each other?
___________________________________________________________

-I hope you still remember-

Loves

2009-04-05T18:02:00.004+08:00

Kepompong, loves

Bara

Yelloz!!

Yesterday for the first time I think, went to West Coast with fam.
Aunt Lina, Aunt Sue and the rest were there, even Kak Shasha.
So had dinner at Mac. After dinner head to the amphitheater to chillax.

Had discussions about our family chalet this may. Chit chat and stuffs.
Planned to go bowling or midnight movie but in the end all of them
head to my house.

Quite a fun evening. After aunts, uncs and cousins left, talk on the phone.
I can't seem to sleep.

Now gonna try to complete my song. if only I can get some inspiration.

Anyway, I think someone merajuk ah. And I really don't know how to pujuk.
Trying to learn how to dig secrets while someone doze off while talking
on the phone. Cause someone got to dig out something from me.

K stop merepek-ing already.

Weekdays I've been watching Bara and Kepompong.
Love the shows. So I'm totally hook to both that shows.

Bara is about teenage poly life and kepompong is about friendship.
Both shows at times the plot can be boring but I still like.

K.. Update more soon.

Toodles~
__________________________________________________________________

-Still you and only you-

Chronicles of Miemie

2009-03-30T15:31:00.002+08:00

It just takes one hour to make me to fall in love with you.
But it takes forever for me to forget you.

Is it true that promises are meant to be broken or is it just
people who can't keep promises will tend to break it?

I'm like so random now coz was watching this Indon reality show and
its about a girl who wanted to meet her ex boyfriend. She's engaged but
to someone she that she doesn't love. Her parents didn't like her ex coz I think
he's not of their standard. So the ex was humiliated and so does the ex's mom.

So after a year her good friend knew that she's unhappy with the engagement.
So the friend sign her up for this reality show. At first she didn't agree but with
good nego skills by the presenters, she agreed and the start of her adventure in
search for her ex..

It took them more than a week to locate the ex's home. Upon reaching the house,
the ex's mom saw this girl and instantly she scolded her and chase her and the presenters
off from her property. She was mumbling ah so I didn't really know what she was saying.
So she chased the girl and the crews of that reality show.

When they were just about to leave, the ex's sister came out and told them if they
wanna know where the guy, which is the ex, they have to meet her the next day at some secluded place.

So the next day they went there and met the sister. The sister brought them through
some bushes and to a cemetery. The girl, the presenteers and the crew were like
super shock. Muker satu-satu lost giler.

They saw the ex's mom sitting next to a grave and when they went to her she hug her
and told her that the grave is the ex's grave. "He really loves you so much, even after
you left him" The girl broke down and cry. After a few seconds she fainted. Drama mama.
The mom gave her a letter that the ex's left for her. "He knows one day you gonna come
to say you're sorry"

Until the show end, I still don't know how the guy died. But from what I could see
is that the guy committed suicide. But I dunnoe ah, just a guess.
And by the way, when they came to the grave it was ironically his 1 year death
anniversary.

Hilmie's story-telling done, over...

I'll stop merepek-ing.

Gonna watch Bara!..

Ciaoz~
_______________________________________________________________

-Always that special AnGeL-

60 Earth Hour

2009-03-29T02:58:00.005+08:00

Earth Hour. :-D

Raffles Place <3

Supreme Court eh? And a Spaceship

War memorial, where skinheads used to hang out.

A great post-core band. For Better Endings

Feez likes this band.. Audiocean

Facing The Giant movie

Nice movie to watch...
Was damn bored just now...

Went out wif Feez to watch Baybeats 2nd Round Audition at Esplanade.
Missed Vermillion but its okay. Watched through 4 or 5 bands I think.
Those bands are good. I like For Better Endings while Feez likes Audiocean.
But it was awesome. Waiting for June or July for the real Baybeats.

After that head out for late lunch and went home. So I reached home before 7
and thought of getting involve with the Earth Hour thingy. But I slept and
woke up at 930pm. So missed the whole event.

Later went to meet Sha. Catch up with stuffs and as always, got bullied by her.
Head home and watched Facing The Giants. Love the show but its more
to Christianity but the show just open up my heart and mind and soul.
K sounds like crap but seriously it's one touchy show.

Online till now and I think I need to have a few hours sleep coz meeting Feez
in the morning..

Maybe I'll crap less and talk more sense.

Au revoir!
________________________________________________________________

-Believing since 23 Nov 08-

Sadden

2009-03-27T22:02:00.013+08:00

That's how dark my heart is now

Goodbye. 1 and half years

The main gate with Ah Toh saying.."You take care boy!"

Alpha!! (Half of them)

Last day changing in the locker room

Akaiz, Mie, Tot

Me and my fav SSS, Rafi

The last time seeing this boat pass by me

The last morning with a strange fog setting

Emo Moments

From my Jetty hut

No more these

Me and Azmi

Me and Sumil Bin Umpil

This was my last boat trip

I can maneuver a boat. Seriously..

That "big" guy is my TL. Smart and respected.

They left me at the PL3 buoy.. Cool but scary

K.. posing ah

Early morning breeze

Officially ORD-ed on the 13th of March 2009. Now I'm confused. Either Signing on or continue study. Coz I have till next week to decide. Which will it be..
So now in stress mode.

Anyway, I missed my life in NS so much... Now life goes by differently. Sometimes I wake
up thinking why do I miss that routine and discipline life. Well that life have make me realise
what the world is. Its a big and complicated world. I get to know alot of people from
different walks and background. Different advices received and I thanked those who gave
me meaningful thought and advices. I bet it'll help me in the after NS life...

I got so much to talk about but I think I got brain cramp. Maybe update soon. Tomorrow
perhaps?

It's been awhile since I've updated.

Those peekchures were my last two days at work. The saboh part I don't have any pics.
Maybe gonna ask A friend for it. They have the vidz too but guess not putting it up.
But the saboh was memorable.

I miss you Coast Guard!!! Especially Lim Chu Kang Regional Base...!!!

Toodle doo~
_________________________________________________________________

-For you I will-

ORD

2009-03-10T00:56:00.003+08:00

The Ghost Busters

The Cik Pons and Hantu Sesat

V for Vogue, $60 costume Suhaimi wore

Police Coast Guard Dinner and Dance

After the Event, dead tired

Scream!

Me, Tot and Al-Hafiz with that scream Guy

Of love and death, of earth and war,
Death is a savior life is a whore.
Of hugs and lashes of caresses and scars,
there is light, a riddle of stars

That's dark...

And I'm like ORD-OH now...
De-kit on 12th of march...
Yeah! Gonna meet my intake and shout ORD together..

All of us feel so happy but deep down inside we did cry.
Cause gonna leave the wonderful place we spent
1 and a half years of our life, Lim Chu Kang Police Coast Guard Regional Base

Gonna miss navigating the boat, high speed chase, catch bad guys...
Alot of stuffs gonna be missed....

But all will always be kept in my memory..
Me, Adam, Jeffery gonna be close friends even after ORD...
2 years we've been together... Buddy squad, NDP07 squad and
the same bunk for our MPC at Pulau Brani.But gonna miss
The Team... Team Alpha...

Thanks Team Alpha for the wonderful 1 and a half year. My NS life
was a wonderful one... National Service ....OVER!!!

K.. Need to watch Family guy... Update with pics on my last
day of duty...

Toodles~

Tags:

Feez- Okie watched already yesterday
Kinah-Thanx tapi dah tgk
Sha- The one above ur name at my tag board taught me
ShaQQQ- Dah update pon :-P
____________________________________________________________

-You backstabbed me bitch-

Smile like you mean it

2009-03-03T03:25:00.004+08:00

They just brightened up the night sky

You know I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything

You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would believed that you were part of a dream?
Now it all seems light years away

Touchy..

I wanna watch Slumdog Millionaire..
Anyone?

I need to sleep. Toodles...
Somebody taught me how to merajuk..

Gone~
___________________________________________________________

-I'm lost now, where are you?-

Fry Day

2009-03-01T03:04:00.011+08:00

The Fishing Shop where I always accompany Loco

Random AyeEN and AiSHA pic

Northland's Choir.. Cool Vocals

A Dancing Teacher..

Northland's Boys Brigade

Blurr.. Cheng Chin... Yes blurrr

So Friday... Friday... Oh yar...
Accompany ChengChin for Northlands Passion arts Concert.
Its cool only those students who kinda misbehave but what to do,
when I was their age I too behave that way..

Enjoyed the day. The Symphony Band played a song I heard before.
When my bro was perform in the very same band at SJI, they played the same
song. K dun understand its ok...

Went back alone.. Suppose to meet Feez but decided to wait for someone
at the bus stop. In the end didn't wait coz mom called and asked me
to be home soon. So rushed home and sms her whether she's safely home.

K wtf am I crapping about..
That's what happened on Friday.. Thanx Cheng Chin..
After so long didn't go out with you.. K not that long but yar...
Today as in Sunday, gonna head off to unc's house to help out for my cousins
wedding reception.. Gonna be a mini one...
So only close family will be attending..

After that heading off to Dhoby Ghaut ...

I think I crapped to much..

The pics are randomly placed and afew were taken on friday.
Not clear but its okie...

The hand of my clock strikes two
In times when I got the best of you
We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life,
Where I, did something right.
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
If I could, I wanna start it all over again.

________________________________________________________________________________________

-Like I told you, always in my heart-

Sha-Ouh okie and Bimbo? Puh--Lease
Farah-Yes Bacin , Feez is my Best Friend
ChengChin-Ouh Sorry Im gay ur Les.. *Winks*
To AyeeN- Its okie... Its gonna be fine soon I guess.
To AyeeN-We'll try to be like before?

Left the living dead

2009-02-24T19:59:00.010+08:00

Now its just another memory

The Guys that cheer me up at work

The Team that I've been with for 1 and a half year of my NS life.. Rawkz!

Stay and watch the stars come out and then the sun as they all fade away

I'll sing you every song I know if it will make you want to stay
and then I'll say that I missed you
and these words they'll convince you

I poured through every song I wrote
every line that I've cried, every note that was split with this pen
and every line in every song, they all seemed to come out wrong
until your song...

The songs will just disappear sooner or later..
__________________________________________________________________

-I swear that you don't have to go-

Cheng- Er.. what talking you? Someone? Er who?And Im no gay! Les
Feez-Apedah feez, jangan merepek can? GSF dude..
Farah- GSF stands for only people like me noe.. And feez too.. Ask him
Sha-Spamming is bad.. Hahah Nvm.. GSF is life.. Go figure!
To Ayeen-Updated! As promised. Its for you.

Survey

2009-02-19T03:02:00.004+08:00

What a freaking hellish week..
Missing something somewhere.
Hurt someplace somewhere..

Lets do a survey to kill time...

Survey

Tagged by Cheng Chin to do this =D

Hi, my name is: Hilmie

But you can call me: Hilmie Boys (Labeled by Azman and Tot)

Never in my life have I: Slap anyone

The one person who can drive me nuts is: Someone ah..

My high school is: High School as in secondary .. Ahmad Ibrahim sec..

The last song I listened to was: Fall For You.. Secondhand Serenade

If I were to get married right now it would be to: Jessica Alba... Buts she's married!!

My hair is: Short now.. I dun like can?

When I was 4: I fell in love for the first time.. with my first Bicycle

Last Christmas: I gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away

I should be: Myself and nothing else.. can

When I look down I see: The freaking floor..

The happiest recent moment was: when I met you.. But what the hell.. Nothing is happy after all

If I were a character on ‘Friends’: Joey?

I have a hard time understanding: what gals think.. and why are they so complicated.. Puh...lease don't be complicate can?

There are these girls: who still call me a boy.. Good job

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: My Bestest friend!

I want to buy: The World

Where do you plan to go during Chinese New Year: Next year? China!

If you spent the night at my house: I will lock you out of your house. *Winks*

The world could do better without: Crime, like duh!

Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: My Quicksilver Slippers..

Most recent thing someone else bought me: A box of Chocolate

My middle name is: Bond... Hilmie Bond Cullen.. K WTH

In the morning: I sleep

Last night : I sleep but late

There’s this gal I know: who calls me a gay. Stop can? >.<

If I were an animal I’d be a: Falcon or phoenix.. Can?

A better name for me would be: What name? I love my name

I am: Hilmie

Tonight I am: Still Hilmie

My birthday is: 101087

Tagging these people.
Just do the survey can?

I'm freaking having issues...

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I thought we'll be fine like before.. But it just happen again.

I'm fine with what's happening now.. yar

Like, what the hell are Hilmie.

I'm going nuts now..

Need to talk to someone...

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-Imissyou -

-thanks for not being there for me-

Crap

2009-02-17T02:04:00.011+08:00

Orchard with love

When you're bored, take a picture.

Our Item, on table 90

Taken from Sakura Restaurant

At Sakura, for Fezo b'dae

The Birthday guy, Feez

Our food. We really took alot. Sorry Shaqeela

The b'dae guy trying to log in to msn

The nice food we had

The Jetty, where I spent some lonely nights
at my workplace

When I was trying to be creative

The past few days was just so tiring..
Anyway, Happy V' Day to those happy couple.
V'Day suppose to be everyday, not just on the 14th of Feb..
Nevermind me..

Last Thursday went out with ChengChin. Thought of getting present for someone and
catch a movie but in the end didn't catch any movie but got b'dae present for CC's friend.
Went back to yishun and met up with Feez. Talk talk and discuss about alot of stuffs.
Brainstorm alot of stuffs and after that we head home.

On Monday 9th feb, went to Sakura International Restaurant, I think thats
what its called, to so call treat Feez. His belated b'dae give. Hahaha.
And yes Feez, be spontaneous. I did and its your turn.
I had fun that day.. I mean really fun...
Having fun with your bestfriend and behave like Gays.. NOT!

We really had alot of food, fun and laughter but best of all, Feez
gave me a reality check.

I'm confuse about stuff. Only Feez knows. Sometimes it just eat
up inside. I've been losing sleep for some reason.
Maybe GSF is the best thing now for me.. Right Feez?

I've been crapping alot and this post is really full of craps..
But hey, Whatever... I'm pissed for no reason now..
Maybe cause my brain needs some rest or just lack of vitamins.

Update more soon.

And Hi ShaQQQ!!

To you... please don't ignore me.
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You know I miss you alot
But it seems that there's something
wrong somewhere now.
Need some soul searching..

Misses

2009-02-08T22:32:00.008+08:00

The one person I miss alot

Nur a'in itu namamu
Nur a'in sering di hatiku
sukarnya untuk berpisah dengan dirimu
tak sanggup kehilanganmu
tak tertahan menanggung rindu
wajahmu sering menjelma
dalam mimpiku

hanyalah namamu
yang bertatar di hatiku
tak mungkin kasihku berpaling
kepada insan yang lain
selain Nur a'in

As promised... ^_^
So now that's what I told you about what I'm gonna post.

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Anyway, I realise my primary school and secondary school friends
are of like two worlds apart. Primary school classmates are like intellectuals
but a turn off . Secondary school classmates are intellectuals. So smart.
1/3 teachers now. and I think half my classmates are in Uni now or soon.

I'm like one of the few left being a screw up. Maybe not.
I'm choosing another path of life. Going to be a regular Officer soon.
and gonna complete my studies too. Determination!

Update more. I need a new camera!

Writing a gay and a love song..

~Toodles

fyi I hope yesterday will remain yesterday..
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-You're my princess-

Dance

2009-02-07T01:44:00.003+08:00

Just dance, gonna be okay
Da-doo-doo-doo
Just dance, spin that record babe
Da-doo-doo-doo
Just dance, gonna be okay
Duh-duh-duh-duh
Dance, dance, dance
Ju-ju-ju-just dance

Yeapz.. Just dance... Lady Gaga rock my ipod for
today.. Da doo doo..

And

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEZO!!

You're 22.. Old... And I'll be tat age in like 9 months?
Long way man..

Chase your dreams, catch your breathe and all the best for
the future buddy!

I wish you exactly at 12 ey!

Today was quite a short day.. as in nothing much happened.
Your sms made my day..

I need to go. Need to have guy to guy talk with B'dae boy..

Toodles~

I really miss you.
I miss seeing you
I don't know what you're doing now..
Just wanted to tell you I miss you..
(Copyright)
Loves <3

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-Nobody but you-

Bukan Niatku

2009-02-04T19:25:00.003+08:00

Pabila, kau tiada di sisiku
Hatiku, bermula terasa sayu
Wajahmu, Selalu terbayang-bayang
Di fikiran ku, wahai sayang...

Senyum mu.. enggan pergi..
Tawarmu..mengiringi..
Wajahmu ku terbayang..
Hadirmu dalam mimpi..
Seumpama bidadari..
Potrait mu ku tatapi..

Will you still love me in the morning?
Forever and ever..

That's like so sweet... ^_^

Its been a freaking tiring 5 days for me. Friday had training.
Saturday morning shift duty, reached home at 2330hrs. Sunday another
morning shift duty, reached home at 0020hrs. Both morning shift I left house at
0550hrs. Then monday another morning shift duty. Left house at 0610hrs. Late!
Reached home from work around 0230am coz need to help out a friend. He's like
in deep trouble? Then Tuesday Night shift. Woohoo.. Freaking tired like Hell.
My shift supposedly to be Morning shift, Night shift and 2 days off. But due to
unexplained circumstances, My shift for that 5 days changed.

So now I'm having my 2 offs. Today and tomorrow. RESTO!!

The top 2 paragraph is for someone to read. Just for you.
Tak paham takpe...

So My Bestest Friend's birthday coming up this Saturday.
Big boy gonna be 22 this year... You're getting old my friend..

Thinking what to get him. Anyway, its the thought that count ryte?

I'm like playing facebook while updating. Coz playing the motor racing
thingy. FUN! Trying to find other games. People, play facebook games.

And that someone give me testi at friendster so short. And you haven't
Update!!

I'll try my best not to emo at my blog. But I see like I'm not emo-ing.
I'll emo for once can?

Someone is making me missing him/her alot... alot.. alot..

If you miss someone so much you'll go crazy ryte? So gonna
refrain myself from missing too much. Or I'll go crazy like
for the past 6 days. So gonna take the chill pill.

I need to meet with Feez and my bro at Northpoint.

Toodles~

And ey, you.. Update!
And your bro sings the jiwang songs quite nice you know?
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-Kemana kau menghilangkan diri?-

When you love someone

2009-01-28T15:37:00.005+08:00

Band of Brothers, Coast Guard

When you love someone , you'll do anything
You'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain
You'll shoot the moon, put out the sun

When you love someone
You'll deny the truth, believe a lie
There'll be times that you'll believe you could really fly
but your lonely nights have just begun when you love someone

When you love someone you'll feel it deep inside
and nothing else can ever change your mind.

When you love someone, you'll sacrifice
You'd give it everything you got and you won't think twice
You'd risk it all no matter what may come

Updated!

1 and a half month more to ORD!
Yeah!!! I want my pink IC!!

Someone wait a few more months for your IC ah.. Someone ah.

Been watching Teevee with that war info. I don't think
the war between Palestine and Israel will ever end. But the casualties are
more towards children and women. Why must they settle their differences
this way? If only we can do something to stop it.
One of the videos really made me cry.. Emo
But really, they showed kids throw rocks at Israelis Soldier
but they were then shot with tear gas and rubber bullets.
C'mon ah Israel, you're on their lands and you took their lands.

Enough of this, heal the world. Make it a better place.
For you and for me and the entire human race. There are
people dying, if you care enough for the living. Make a better place
for you and for me.

Anyway, today suppose to do something at Bukit Panjang, but
last minute thing pop up. But I'll surprise you someday.

My blog full of crap but its my blog~

And to YoU, don't be sad, don't be worried. You know you're not alone.
Friends around and alot of people care for you. Especially me.
And don't care what haters say or tag, they're just low life creatures
without a life. So don't bother?

When night falls and darkness surrounding you.. I'm here to
brighten it up.

Enough of ranting for today..
Update more soon..
You update alryte...
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-beg to differ-

Sick

2009-01-19T16:53:00.002+08:00

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you,
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you.

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways

I'll never feel alone again with you by my side
You're the one and in you I confide

I'll give my heart to you,
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you

Okie, I'm down with flu and fever. My body aches like hell.
At work, I wore like 2 sweaters! 1st layer my rip curl hoody next
layer another thick jacket. The weather was so cold and the wind was like
blowing non-stop.Around 2am my fever starts to get worst. Like damn worst.
My head like wanna burst and my leg so freaking weak. In the end I don't care.
I close my eyes and rest. Not sleeping. Work work ah but cannot tahan already.
The pain unbearable. On the way home from work my fren accompany home.
He's worried about me. So nice of him..

Back home my right arm starts to feel numb. I'm taking like 2 hrs
to type this post coz every now and then I need go stretch my arm.
Pain siakz!

To someone, I'm fine.. and somebody didn't go skool today..
Hope tonight someone is free ah...

OKie I'll end it for now. Need buy dinner and buy Medicine.
You know medicine can be bought at shops? Someone dunnoe uh..
Who? I also dunnoe..

K crap too much..

Toodles~

; If you love someone more than anything, Then distance only matters to the mind, not to the heart

(Copyright)

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-you're my fairytale-

Life is Wonderful

2009-01-15T20:58:00.004+08:00

It takes a thought to make a word
and it takes some words to make an action
it takes some work to make it work
it takes some good to make it hurt
it takes some bad for satisfaction

And it takes no time to fall in love
but it takes you years to know what love is
and it takes some fears to make you trust
it takes those tears to make it rust
it takes the dust to have it polished

This few days it seems weird. I don't know why.
The wind is freaking strong. The sea so choppy.
2 days ago, I almost tripped and fall off from my boat..
Coz of that stupid rope. My fault too coz I placed the
rope there coz I'm too lazy to coil it up. Padan muker ko Hilmie!

Hahaha.

I miss you somebody... Yeah like Totally.
And it ain't fair when someone keep bullying me..
Can I sulk for once? Yeah like now?

Cause you bully me. Can I bully you?
Okie bully sound so bad..
I'm no baddie, just a sad guy but with a wonderful life..
So contradicting ..

Past few days I've been writing songs or should I say
trying to write songs. Inspired by Jason Mraz and Plain White T's.
Wrote a few songs and its like, there's someone name written all over the lyrics.
Not like all over the lyrics but just its like the song is about someone.
Gosh! Wtf am I talking about? Haha.. Ok What the hell~

And the weather and atmosphere is like so unpredictable.
Its windy but warm in the day but windy and cold at night.
Freezing.....

But all, Life is so wonderful. Cause its full of love...
You can't see that someone love you cause that someone might
not show it but you just feel it and when she cares for you.
You'll know and that's when that wonderful feeling comes to you.

K.. what am I crapping about?

Life is wonderful, life is meaningful...

When your day seems so dull and so plain..
I'm here to make it wonderful...

Toodles~

Dearest AnGeL,
Thank you~
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-Dont go-

>.<

2009-01-13T11:33:00.004+08:00

I'm sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of something, anything just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did

I'm sitting here trying to convince myself that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it and the more I want you here with me

I know it's not the smartest thing to do, we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight

I'm sitting here trying to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

And I didn't mean to meet you then we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did
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-My sacrifice-

2nd Post

2009-01-08T10:50:00.005+08:00

Do you have a First aid kit? I cut my knee falling for you.

I can't sleep. Thinking...
What did I do staying awake:
-Completed a song about you... -Listen to simple plan "Don't wanna think about you" -Listen to Addicted by Simple plan -Listen to Save you -Watch Peanut to cheer me up. -Played random songs on my guitar. -Waiting for someone's sms.

The 3 songs played repeatedly on my com. Even lying on my bed
with my eyes closed doesn't work. Restless..
Anyway I know someone not gonna leave me. So I'll be fine.
I guess.
Yesterday was what I call, The Day My Life Stood Still.
Am I stalking you? Am I intruding into your life?
I feel that way..

I'll stop here.. Got to help my bro with something.

Don't fall when you don't know how to pick urself up.

Gone~
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-I know I'll always have you-

Solitary Ground

2009-01-08T02:46:00.002+08:00

And this is how it feels when I ignore the words you spoke to me.
And this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you.

And this is who I am when I don't know myself anymore.
And this is what I choose when it's all left up to me.

And this is how it looks when I am standing on the edge.
And this is how I break apart when I finally hit the ground.

And this is how it hurts when I pretend I don't feel any pain.
And this is how I disappear when I throw myself away.

Is it wrong to be not nice for once?
When you've always been nice and you know that's just you,
but suddenly you feel that you had enough of people stepping
and trying to step over you.

You try to change but you realize it does more damages to you.
Its so painful that you decided to remain what you've always been.
Rather be yourself than being someone else.
That's f**ked up.

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Took a night walk at the park just now. Need a breather and
to enjoy the cool breeze. The park was empty and its kinda scary
but I just need that peaceful environment. Really need that walk
to settle down. And now I can't sleep. For what reason, I don't know.
Anyway, I think my previous post, my fifth new year resolution, gonna
remove it. I don't know why.

I like the word I Don't Know. Installed in my brain . Thanks to someone.

I've got to thank you for always being there. Even though you don't
know how much it means to me. Its you that keeps me moving.
Sorry for everything before. That might have hurt you.

I'm saying it out loud that I miss you. I've said it a thousand times
to you and I'll keep saying it. You... Misses...

2 different posts. Cause I'm a weirdo.
I'm a nightmare, a disaster. That's what they always say.
I'm a lost cause, not a hero but I'll make it on my own.

Enough of ranting.

Toodles~

We can always give us a chance. Even when there's

objection. We'll face it together. Walk the same path

together and I know we'll make it through together.
Just take my hand cause I know everything will
be alright. I just need you to fill up my life.
Life's full of obstacle. Its just how you gonna
face it and to overcome it.

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-Me and you against the world-

The meet ups

2009-01-05T11:43:00.005+08:00

The day I turned 21. I think 4 days after I turned 21 ^_^
Random pic

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night, it's only right
To think about the girl you love, and hold her tight.
So happy together

If I should call you up, invest a dime
And you say you belong to me and ease my mind
Imagine how the world would be, so very fine

I can't see me loving nobody but you for all my life
When you're with me the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you and you and me
No matter how they toss the dice it has to be
The only one for me is you and you for me

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Imagine how that would have been if all the sweetest
things you can think of ever comes true?

Even the saddest person on earth will break a smile
and think that this life is worth living in.. ^_^

My new year resolution:-

1- Get my approval letter as a full-pledged Police Coast Guard Officer 2-Apply for a degree in Life science in MDIS, which my friend says possible 3-A whole better new year than 2008 4-What I am for 2008 to be achieved 5-Getting a girlfriend.

Okie, that's just part of it...

If I can achieve that 5 then I'll be the happiest man. Yar ryte...
No.5 is a tough one...Hmmm

Okie I need get change...

And I'm not posting ur pic cause, maybe I'll post it on my next post.. hahaha
Okie, enjoy ur Monday people!

I'm so gonna be happy today in a few hours. Can't wait..

Toodles~

I even call out your name when I'm sleeping. And that really disturb my bro.. Random~
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-Today we play peek-a-boo-

Countdown

2009-01-01T15:31:00.001+08:00

For too long now, there were secrets in my mind
For too long now, there were things I should have said
In the darkness, I was stumbling for the door
To find a reason, to find the time, the place, the hour
Waiting for the winter sun and the cold light of day

Hey hey..

Its 2009!
Goodbye 2008!!

What's your new year resolution?

Mine's a secret...

Happy New Year peepz!!!

Yesterday went countdown at Marina but watched the fireworks in the car
at the expressway, near Marina South Exit.Everywhere jam..

We were like going round and round to find the best spot.
But all road close. But we did get to see the fireworks by the roadside.

Loves!

Pic will be uploaded soon.

After that we went to Yishun Dam. To chill and took lots of peekchures.
So so tiring but I enjoyed it. Update more soon.

I got to prepare myself for work.. On new year..

Take care~

Me Misses You.
You Know Who You are..
Loves~
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-Sinking or Thinking-

My everything

2008-12-30T13:51:00.003+08:00

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry

I'm gonna try to update every 2 or 3 days..
Coz somebody force me to. Somebody.

K lah that somebody didn''t force, my own free will.

And that somebody slept early yesterday..
But never mind, tired I guess. Long day..

Anyway just reached home from work about
1 and half hour ago. A bit tired but got to go
watch friends band practice. Force to watch .

I need a cold shower and a good massage. Where's that
foot massager??

Got to run...

Toodles~

I lead my own life and its you who changed the course of my life.
You're my everything.
You're the sweetest thing.
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-Sealed inside keeps me smiling-

My Girl

2008-12-29T13:57:00.003+08:00

My heart is pumping
It's putting up the fight and I've got this feeling
That everything's alright
Don't you see
I'm not the only one for you but you're the only one for me

If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone
Don't tell me I will make it on my own

Stay close, don't go.

So what is a nice song, I begin my post withe random stuffs.
That's me, just being random.

Anyway, yesterday was fun.. As in I did heroic stuffs.. Hahah
I saved the people at the public jetty from a drifting boat.
Me and Azmi was on board another boat and we had to react fast to secure
the drifting boat. Azmi was maneuvering the boat while I was the one
doing the hard part. Jumping and tying...

I sprained my ankle while jumping around. The wind and current were strong
and it made our situation much more difficult. Within 45 mins everything done.

And my ankle still hurts alot.

I'm happy today, ankle will soon heal. But I'm happy.
Are you?

You put a smile to my face. You brighten up life.
You give me hope and strength to carry on.
You made me believe in myself.
You're irreplaceable.

I'm Happy!! Okie need to pack my bag.

AyeEn... ^_^

Toodles~

I probably gonna start a fight..

To whom it may concern,
eventhough you hurt me with
those daggered words, I've forgiven you.

End it with a video from a friend. He wrote and sing this song.
Name, Shaiful Hakim.
Song, Need a Friend
This song he dedicated to the sweet Kinah...

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-compañía en mi corazón -

Sha: Okie Malaikat.. But AnGeL sounds nicer. Full stop
Farz: Ey tak sombong. I was busy.. Sorry.
Nurul: Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Cuz!!
Cheng Chin: Ey thats so sweet.. Hahah OKie Thanx
Its been so long since u tag..

Lost

2008-12-21T14:27:00.007+08:00

I'm sick of second chances
Cigarettes turn to ashes
I'm standing under street signs
To know the places I've been my whole life
I watch the hours pass us
Another one burns to ashes
I'm waiting for your phone call 
To come and save me so you can break my fall

My bed light's burning brighter
Wanted like a boxed in fighter
You've got me fighting pillows
My eyes just won't close till you're at my side
The hours slip to morning
I see the sun coming up
I'm turning off the TV
I'm watching faster than you gave up on me


Today, Ayeen left for KL ... Gonna miss her.. And really do...
Yesterday was such a tiring day. Suppose to call Ayeen but fell asleep.
I think she's angry with me cos of that. Sorry..

Anyway, made 2 new friends, Prakash and Toh. Cool people. Eventhough they are like
older den me but I'm the one teaching them the bad stuffs at work..  Haha. Cause they
are only serving their Reservist. So for them its like a break from work.
We went Mango hunting. Saw a few mango trees and rambutan trees but they are like so high.
So maybe tonight might wanna try to climb those trees.

The past few days was such a bad one. Shall not elaborate but it just doesn't feel right
somewhere. Maybe cause I'm letting out too much of my emotions and I think it might backfire.
Been talking to a friend on the phone. Thank you for being there for me..

My post so random but I'm just expressing myself. But not all out, just some.
I wanna bottle up some. Some things are not meant to be typed, written or say.
So keeping it might be the best solution.

I don't wanna have a breakdown or worst, a bitch fit. But whatever it is, I'm gonna
lead my own life as per normal. Dreaming and trying to achieve those dreams.

And for that someone, I've put you right here in my heart. Sealed and protected by
2 AnGeLs that Voluntarily guarding it.

Crappy post..
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2008-12-17T11:42:00.002+08:00

I hope that God had this plan that you are my Angel

who lost your wings for this world to come down here and save me

I just keep holding on but I'm not that strong without you.

It's times like these that I miss you most

Heyl0 pe0ple ...

Listening to Dewa 19's Laskar Cinta. And at the same time loading

a movie called Windtalkers. I like the movie. You people should

watch it.

Anyway, just reached home from work and I'm quite shagged.

Yesterday at work there's hardly any reception for my phone.

I keep moving the boat for reception. Got awhile but it disappears

after awhile. Can't sms much with people. So in the end I gave up

start singing to songs from my ipod. Kinda irritate Loco and Akai.

Both keeps telling me to shut up but what the hell....

In the end they joined me. Haha, kay, it was fun...

I really need an angel now... Maybe she can help me do reports?

Write logbooks? And help me get that particular AnGeL?

I'm crapping too much...

Leaving you people with A video.. YeY!!

I miss you AnGeL.. When can I see you again?

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-I saw a shooting star and I wished for you-

Someone: Yes Drunch.. Hahhaha

Sha: Relinked!

Nurul: Errr...? What blog?

Feez: You've been loved... Hahah..

AyEeN: M1 suck big time.. I wanna see Peekchures Coz

It'll last longer... Heh

Discontent

2008-12-09T10:18:00.004+08:00

It's 2 am, I lie down deep in slumber
Feelings of falling downward I want to forget
Waking up I'd hear the way your voice sounds
My heart starts to pound now,
To the rhythm of yours

You're so angelic,
Your words so symphonic
Touch your lips to my soul, eat this sorrow away
How am I so lucky I found you?

Sometimes I feel like I'm still dreaming
It seems like every day you're always on my mind
This is how we stay so connected, so connected
Over space and time

When we talk about all my old drama,
You look at me and wonder how I'm not insane
Every week the days seem to get longer
But you know our love gets stronger
With every word we say
Stronger every day

You know I would do anything for you
If you are feeling down, you know I feel it now
We give each other strength to make it through the darkness

You take me to a place, I never want to leave
I'm in my deepest dream, I don't ever want to wake up

I'll fight till I die
I won't say goodbye and I won't let this pass me by

Let's run away, run away now
Let's go away, to some place safe

I want it all now, I want everything

Me and Asyraf, Sunset..

Gosh, I recovered!! Yey!

Hari Raya Haji was a okay,
Got to meet my COUSINS!! Yey!
Love them but its like too short.
I wanna hug everyone of them.
Love you people!

I'm gonna plan cousins outing. Make urselves free...
Date, time, place soon confirm.

To somebody... Achieved ur objectives?? Must show me peekchures..
Cause it'll last longer... Heh..

Nothing much.. Update later.. Gonna go for a short R-U-N.
BOring...

Take care peeps..

AyeEn: M1 suck big time... So does Starhub.. Heh

Tag-
Nurul: Drunch=Dinner and lunch yeh.. Somebody's daily routine. :-D
Farah: Action ah... Hahahah I'm trying to update regularly >.<
Zaf: Are you Zafirah? Anw I still prefer Chicken Rice. Hee ^_^
Shafiqah:Yupz.. They do!!

Me and me

2008-12-08T01:22:00.002+08:00

Shop for stupid Christmas present was hectic.
Feez and Bro wanna buy that stupid Zara Jacket.
I know its nice but the price.. Fuyooh.. Hahaha
I know they sure gonna buy it..

Me and Feez planning to buy each other presents, so
on that class gathering we'll exchange with each other.
I love him he loves me.. Hahahah k.. Merepek

But still got to get one for that gathering.
Feez don't seem to miss 6B' of 1999.

Anyway, Feez is my Bestfriend. We go a long way!
Since Primary one..
Best Buddy!! (K.. cukup sampai disini je feez... hehe)
___________________________________________________________

Yesterday was our day. The Gig!!
We RocK!!...

I played my heart out but didn't sing my heart out...

I don't sing... Hahaha.. Okie but they keep forcing me.
What harmony thingy..

My Bass didn't suck. Amp didn't suck. But I was freaking nervous.
That suck. Aliff was like,"Are you ok?" I'm not...

Haha.. I did overcome my fear.. And We gave our best..

To that someone, overcome ur fear of blankets k? Haha..

Pedro's band was AWESOME! So does SFD.
We're learning from you guys. My idol, Pedro's Bassist.
The nerdy bassist with that Indie dance move.. Hahahah
Cute~

My cough recovered but the gig made it come back.
And tat somebody, it did recover k... Hahahha. Cause I
drank lots of WARM water...

After the Gig, went for drunch at Causeway point. Was actually on the way
but suddenly bro suggest we go eat. Since he treat... And DRUNCH was
nice. Never before eat the Yong Tau Foo thingy before. It was awesome.

Tiring day but it was totally fun...

Reached home, half dead but when I heard somebody do house cleaning,
I suddenly felt so fresh.. Hahaha..

I shall stop blabbering .
Drank 100 plus and eat some cracker and here I am in front of the comp.

I wanna watch The Day when Earth Stood still. I think tats the title.
Yeah! Anyone?

And Selamat Hari Raya Haji fellow Muslims... Go see sheeps k?
____________________________________________________________________

-I've found you-

Updating...

2008-12-05T18:55:00.005+08:00

Heya~

Been busy lately.. Updates, yeah.. Lots of stuffs..

Quarrel with Shakila, hate Jayne, love cousins.

My cousins are awesome people. Love them!!

They just know how to cheer me up and we're super close.

Right Nurul?? ^_^

Shakila, yes, Suppose to talk to her and I'll always fall asleep.

So she's like mad about it and I apologize like a million times

but still angry. Thanx for my crappy poem, it did put a smile on

her face.. Hahaha.

Jayne, hate her!! Beeing a bitch, yeah that's you.

Thanks to you I lose weight!! Hahaha No link.

Okie its crappy I know.... But who cares??

Been listening to songs from this guys called Apit..

So jiwangs but yet some of the songs got link to my life.

Now I'm listening to Jiwangs and RnB. Its not me.. I don't listen

to that kind of stuffs.. No more 'A' tujuh lipat, I mean Avenged Sevenfold.

No more emo songs. Cause somebody don't like it. And once in a while,

listening to some slow stuffs kinda help to cool you down.

Yesterday, AyeEn accompanied me coz I was bored and having a fever.

Yet, I can't sleep. Talk some crappy stuffs with but its like so fun.

I didn't know we talk for 3 hours. She's fun. Is there really such

a place called Jalan Jagung in Malaysia?

Weird name but AyeeN insist there's such a place.

OKie I'll find that out soon.

I'll try to update my blog as frequent as possible.

I think I'll post a few pics...

Take care peepz.

___________________________________________________________

-I'm an outlaw, a disaster-

Me and AyeEn

Band of Brothers

Go!

2008-11-17T12:46:00.004+08:00

Hey... Its been raining..

The weather nowadays so random. Can fall sick.
But its nice to have this kind of weather once in a while.

Past few days was fun. Watched Quantum Of Solace.
The only James Bond movie I think that I'll watch again.
Less kissing lots of action. Total coolness. Been talking to a
friend lately.

Sharing a lot of stuffs. Now I realize this world
you have to open up and not keeping things to yourself.
Let it go. Even if you love someone alot, the other party
do need space. Don't close that space.

What am I blabbering about?

Well NS makes me understand Life. When you mix around
with those adults and married man, the'yll give you priceless advice.

Listen and understand. There's no need to follow all those advices.
Its you who decide. So advice might work on you well some don't.

I've got a lot to blog but I've got to rush to some place in Bugis on
this rainy day. Update soon.

Anyway, I kind of like this emo shit video..

Enjoy~!

_____________________________________________________________

-Your beautiful soul-

Lost

2008-11-14T01:45:00.004+08:00

I'm on the verge of a break down, I'm on the brink of an epic meltdown
I'm on the way to a flat-line

No, I don't really want to leave you behind

If I let it go, If I let this go, If I let you go
Would the scars continue to show.

Back to the ghost story, can't elaborate much. But its quite an adventure.
Tot and Jeff can out with fear on their faces. All I know is that the thing
was like angry with them. The wind was quite strong, the thing became
daring and it came so close that Tot and Jeff almost jumped off from
their place when a loud sound came just beside them.

They didn't want to elaborate more so I can't force them. But they said
they almost wanna pee in their pants. So its freaking scary. The fiercest
and most daring people almost pee in their pants.
If you wanna noe more.. ask me at MSN k?

Now my brain cells are working hard trying to make me think straight
and to concentrate. I'm losing someone that I care alot.

If you're reading this.. I'm here to say I'm sorry if I hurt you in anyway,
maybe I did. But why are you not replying to my messages? Maybe
too angry? Maybe you've moved on? Alot of maybes but I'm so lost
without you.. Truthfully I do...

Talk to me ok?

Now I need to rest. Tomorrow will be a long day at work.
But I got Tot and Rats and even Azman doing together with me
in Station. Station duty won't be the same with them. Looking forward to it.

Thanx Shakila for hearing out to my problems. You're cool.

Hah!

Nitez!
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-One step at a time-

Woohoo

2008-11-07T16:53:00.003+08:00

Wohoo.. Yesterday night was totally fun..

3 cars, 3 motorcycle and 14 guys, went on a journey to explore
the mystical world. We went ghost hunting on a Thursday night.
We've been planning this for like a few weeks prepared with camera
and torchlight all.

We reached Siglap around 11.30pm after our morning shift. I took
Baie's car coz he fetching his friend.Met the rest at the coffeeshop
near opera estate. After having our supper we proceed to Opera
Estate coz the cemetery is located there, Kubur Kassim or
Kassim's Cemetery.

When we reached the gate, the atmosphere changed. There's
like this sinister feeling and like someone watching us.
The caretaker, Abg Din came down and fetched us.
He brought us to a hut with one grave, someone name
Daying Fatimah or sumthing. He says that place is a shrine
and its our safe place for the night. If anything happen he tell us
to stay inside.

So we went for a group walk around the cemetery or should I say
graveyard. Its quite big. around 1 plus then the event starts.
we were seperated into group of two. Each pair will be placed
at different "hot spots". Where sightings rate are high.

Mushi Abdullahs grave is also there. Alot ah.
Some murdered pregnant woman, some killer
and alot of so-called terrible death like murdered,
chop off body all buried there. So the place is haunted ah.

After each pair placed at the spots, the caretaker teached us
some chanting cum prayer thingy. He told us not to shine
at anything or run if u see or heard sumthing.
Coz he says the thing cannot come close, only if ur out of that
spot u sitting the thing can do something to u.

So we stayed. Most of us lasted less den half an hour. Alot of things
can be heard and seen. Elaborate later. Only Jeff Spade and Tot lasted long. Very long.
Until my dad fetch me and Rats, both of them still at their spot.
After I reached home, I called Yazid to ask how Jeff and Tot. They told me to wait
today at work then they will tell me the story. Ok later...

A once in a lifetime experience.. Wow!!
Dangerous and extraordinary..

Update more soon.

Preparing to go to work.
I love work...

Ciaoz~

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-Angel-

2008-10-30T17:07:00.002+08:00

Like the rising tide 
Beating hearts grow but never die 
To simplify 
I’ll stand by your side 
Close my eyes 
Hope will never die 

Take away the pain of being me 
Soothe my soul caress my heart and 
End my fear all my bad memories 
Eradicated 
 
Gunshots heard against a silent night 
My love is louder then these words 
They’re stronger then the rest, unstoppable 

Being naive. Look forward to the day of our recording.
Complex Juliet heading the right direction. Wohoo..

Trying to finish up my song..

Cya~

_________________________________________________________

- Don't let go -

Hey

2008-10-27T17:11:00.007+08:00

Been busy busy and busy.. Today is my 1st off and I got to work.
What to do... Life's like this..

Not been updating lately cause too busy doing some prep for my band
and some course preparation.

So my life now for October quite busy. I think I need to take a break
in November. Will that somebody please accompany me?

I got to prepare to work. Updating tomorrow I guess.

Anw, A7X was a blast. Totally awesome!!! Love it to the core.
We really enjoyed the concert...

A few pics...

And we enjoyed our day..

Update soon..

___________________________________________________________

-Never ending love-

Hey Hey Ho Ho

2008-10-10T00:30:00.004+08:00

I'm old..

And I gotta work on my 21st Birthday..

What to do.. LL ah..

Somebody says she gonna sing me a birthday song.
I'm waiting.. Hahhaha .. You know who.

I'm 21 and I know got some people still thinks I'm 17 or 18
I don't wanna be a man yet. Not Ready!!

People say that NS change a man. Yeah! Really it does.
I learned alot from those seniors and mentors. They show
me the other side of life or should I say, The Real World.
Be it working life or any life, you have to pass through a phase
where you have to make decision. Your own decision.

And somebody got sweet voice at nite. I so wanna talk to you again.
(Random)

Wanna wish my fellow friends SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!

Life's a bi*c*, deal with it people..

O-genki desu ka?

I wanna be random, I wanna be myself

Just so you know I'll wait a thousand years

for you.

______________________________________________________

-My paper heart-

Listening

2008-09-24T14:10:00.003+08:00

Bought Avenged Sevenfold Concert Tix!!! Woohoo! Cost me $78.

Been waiting for my idols to come down for the 2nd time coz I missed

the 1st time they came on last years singfest. Due to involvment in

NDP. So just looking forward to it. Love A7X!

The 1st paragraph is like formal. Wth. Anyway, today dragonboat training

officially begins. Means come base early and be ready to get real shag.

Today gonna do land training with Jay, Jeff and Chubby. I know I gonna die

coz Jay gonna make me a speedboat. Fasting somemore and gonna go thru shit

later. But today I'm doing base duty so not so tiring.

Back to previous days, nothing much happen just losing alot of sleep. Not alot

but feels like it. Preparing stuffs for Hari Raya eventhough I got to work on the first

2 days of Raya. How's tat, but my Team gonna make work a special day on that day.

It suck still but work is work. For the country!! haha..

Not an interesting post but that's my life. Can't wait to start Jamming again.

Miss band practice and football. I wanna kick some ball. Been so long!!

Gotta run~

Take care peeps.

look into your heart and you'll find love

there's no need to complicate our time is short

this is our fate

I'm yours

_____________________________________________________________

-Good luck all the best-

Serenade

2008-09-16T12:58:00.002+08:00

I'll lock myself alone in a room with just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem of the person that I long to be.

Woots..., no more messy long hair. Cut cut chop chop.
Now short and smart. Hahaha.. Thats what the saloon lady say to me.
Work and Band make my days a little busy. Now everything is going
smoothly. Just left with a few course work that I haven't even touch.
But I'll take my time.

Anyways, Yesterday after my section 1 shift went to Geylang Serai
Hari Raya Bazaar with my Team. Not that pack but still got lots of people.
And when we reached there some of the shops had already close shop
or preparing to close cause we reached about 11pm. Had supper with
them at this Indian Shop.

They gave us a few discount coupons. Cool sey!!
Mama Shop got discount coupons. After a heavy supper, heavy coz each
of us order atleast 2 dishes. I ordered Mutton Chop and Chocolate Prata and
shared this Mutton Nan with Suwita and Azmi. Damn heavy lah the meal.

After the meal Suwita sent me home. On the way to Yishun we got lost.
Azmi point here point there and Suwita keep repeating "Can meh here??"
Funny lah inside the car. But still reached my house can liao.

Exactly 2am I reached my doorstep. Change, bathe and sleep. The next thing I
know, I woke up at 12pm. Long long sleep. Tonight gonna slack at work. I think
nothing much left to do.

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And I can't wait for 20th Sept. The day I get to meet my Primary School
classmates! Yea!! Going to 9 years didn't get to see some of them.
All of us gonna bid farewell to our dearest 5B/6B form teacher.
Love you Mrs Singh!! Without her encouragement and scolding especially,
I think I won't be where I am now. I think... Thank You Cher!

Gonna run~

Take care!

Don't be scared phantom my angel.
Is there really one? IMY Angel
__________________________________________________________

-Kidnapped my heart-

Epitome

2008-09-04T14:20:00.003+08:00

Hey there,

Hooked to Secondhand Serenade. Listening to it now and everyday.
Past few days was okie. Baybeats = Great. But not as hype as I went
2 years ago. 2 of my friends performed in this years Baybeats so kinda
go there to give them support. And I took leave just to see you guys
perform. Thank me. Heh.

Hanging out with my band seems to be so much fun.
Every get togethers we'll make up songs. And amazing
songs too. I love my band. Only thing is I miss my gay friend Fezo.
Where are you? Sms never reply, call you and you say you gonna call back.
Why must you disappear?

I know he'll come back once he's back to be himself again.

This past few days the weather seems random. Sudden cold sudden hot.
Then it will start to rain. And cause of that I got a scolding by my CO and
Head Training. Just because of the stupid raincoat."Policeman don't use umbrella"
I'm not using one idiot, I'm just drenched in my freaking uniform. Coast Guard
don't scared rain lah. we "live" in the sea. Don't wear raincoat means don't
want wear lah. OK I was wet but getting wet feels so cool and cold. Lucky I have
wonderful sporty friends. They love getting wet as in body wet k..

I miss those boat fights and water fights. Since our work getting much more
complicated now, no time. Anyway yesterday was fun after work. Locker room catching!
Haha, me and two other guys placed a big frog inside my fren's locker who's
ORD-ing soon. He opened his locker and got shock. He took the frog and chase
all of us who was in the locker room. 1 chasing like 10 of us. Next thing you can hear are screams and
people slipping, doors banged. All came out of the locker room bruised and cut.
One word.. Fun!!

I think I'm gonna sleep awhile before heading to work.

Take care~

Miley Cyrus is the bomb!
___________________________________________________________

-He hearts that girl-

Boo~

2008-08-30T03:45:00.002+08:00

Early morning, she wakes up
Knock, knock, knock on the door
It's time for makeup, perfect smile
It's you they're all waiting for

She's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?
__________________________________________

Its like almost 4am.

And I'd wish the sun would never come
It's 4 AM and you are gone
It's 4 AM and I'm alone
Why don't you hear me when I'm calling out to you
Why don't you listen when I try to make it through

She is the epitome of sweetness..
She's been what my heart desires.
If only you knew how much this soul
has fallen for you.

I don't wanna make it sound desperate, but damn
this fragile heart of mine.

I so wanna rest now. Hope I can close my eyes.

I so need you now. Go out with me one day ok?
you know who you are. The girl who loves miyuki and elmo and
Eeyore...
_________________________________________________________

-Faking my smile-

NIL

2008-08-27T16:49:00.002+08:00

Bad days and more bad days.
I'm like having pms now. Kinda pissed wif a lot of stuff.
More F words now.. but I wanna chill. Be nice Hilmie~

Jamming with the band was fun and we really practiced so hard.
Preparing for our recording which I forgot when's the date.
So after jamming went for dinner at delifrance, my bro's treat.
My bro was nice that day. I dunnoe why..

The next day, which was yesterday, went to work feeling so down.
I thought it'll be a boring day. 1st half of the day from 9 till 2pm was
quiet busy.Then the time suddenly went by slowly. Hang out with
Aaron and Krishna at the jetty. We felt that we've been talking like
for over an hour but actually only 15 mins. That day was like so slow.

But when it started to rain around 4, I was all alone in my stupid room.
The view was super nice, the clouds and the sea with that mountain
as the background. The mountain is at Malaysia. My room or my post
I mean is situated opposite of Malaysia. So its like freaking nice.

Anyway, my whole day yesterday was boring. Without my ipod, I
think I'll die. Love you Ipod.

Today I'm gonna be late for work cause now I'm still online and
haven't even bathe yet.

Update later~

Ciaoz

You say I'm different, maybe cause I dun wanna lose you
I've never fall for someone so badly before.
Never felt this way before.
My only wish is you to be with me.
_______________________________________________________________________________________________

-You're my breath-

Song: More to life-Staccie Oricco

2008-08-20T17:15:00.004+08:00

I love my ITouch.. Never leave home without it. 1 year you've been
in my pocket.

Argh!! Stupid cough..

I think my flu and cough are getting worst.

I don't wanna rest.. Cause tomorrow my off day I have

to attend in-service at Brani Base. So today I got to spent with my

computer and my guitar.But I guess I need a short nap.

Its getting worst.

Gonna take a nap.

I'm crappy when I'm sick.

Ciaoz~

If only I can hold you

in my arms now.

I love you

so much..

______________________________________________________

-To love is to wait-

2008-08-09T13:32:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Singapore!!

Happy National Day citizens of Singapore

Maybe gonna hang out at esplanade to catch the fireworks.

Maybe not cause I don't wanna miss the parade

Toodles~

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-one too many-

Song: Guardian Angel -RJA

2008-08-08T17:01:00.003+08:00

Today's date 080808...

Isn't tat kewl??? My birthday on the year 2010 it'll be 101010.

Can't wait.. So am I, still waiting, for this world to stop hating.

The whole day I glued myself infront of the computer. Chat, surf and write
a song but no music. Gonna crack my head for the music.
Just hang up from the phone with Jayne.
Talk random stuff till we laugh our asses
of our own beds. It was fun though but stupid.

Now need to change and meet up with dearest Fezo and Aliff.
So bored if I stay at home on my 1st off.

And I'm so looking forward for National Day.
Last year this time I was ironing
my uniform and polishing my belt and shoe.
Trying to look smart with my Police
Uniform. Trying... Cause it was the big day after
5 months of hardwork and vigorous training.
I'm proud to be part of Last year's National Day.
The first batch to be involve on the floating platform at Marina Bay.

I miss those days, from training, to the previews and the actual day.
I bet my squad mates feel it too.
3 squads together for 5 months like brothers.
Being tortured, burned and all those stuffs they did just to make us be the
best contigent for the parade.
We missed the free KFC/Pizza Hut. All those
pitures taken with SCDF, Army and Airforce contigents
will stay in my memory forever.
No Navy cause they kind of stuck up.

I so miss last year's NDP...

~Ciaoz~
_________________________________________________________

-My heart will go on-

Listening to Complicated by Avril

2008-08-04T20:27:00.003+08:00

I'm lost for words. Didn't know lesbianism was an in-thing at all-girls school.
Someone I know told me she's attached with a girl. Gawd!! What's this
world turning to...

Oh dearest.. why are you so dumb to fall for a girl. Gross...

Sunday went for dragonboat training. It was tough.
After so long didn't do any sea sports. Not that long but long
enough that the muscle can't cope with a little sea sport training.

Aching still and its like damn painful. Need a back rub...

Now gonna head for Fezo's crib.. I mean house. The weather seems
nice.

And I still haven't sleep since I reached home from work.

Too much thinking to do. Too much hatred to let go. And
too many things to complete.

Ciaoz~

I so wanna meet her real soon.. L.C.C
_________________________________________________________________________________________

-You'll always be my baby-

Jayne is a friend of mine

2008-07-31T19:40:00.003+08:00

Walk this silent road just to feel the cool breeze
and the streetlight to guide me all the way home.

3 days ago was Jayne called. It was the first time I talked
to her on the phone coz we either chat on MSN or SMS.
She says that she's bored so she called. Had a good chat and
for the first time a gal told me I'm gay. WTF.

Maybe the way I talk on the phone sounds gay but me ain't gay.
The whole she calls me gay. KNN.. But I had fun listening to her
jokes and her butch friends. Katong Convent girls are like so
cute when they speak or laugh. Jayne laughs like some weird
cartoon character.

Next up is that my Station Inspector loves me... Hahaha,
He's gonna update my performance record. Yeh!! Promotion!!

Payrise but more responsibility. Nevermind, important is the money.

Okie, now I feel shagged. Sunday gonna go Dragonboat, after so long
I promise Jeff that I'll be going. So just did some preparation before
dragonboat training so all parts aching like hell.

Gonna lie on my bed and read that thick book, In the evil day.

Ciaoz~

___________________________________________________

-I'll wait even forever-

Soledad

2008-07-18T23:13:00.006+08:00

I won't tell nobody.
I'll just scream it in my mind.
Nothing good in life is scripted.
It's not like we predicted that the one you want
Is gonna be the one you thought.

Love will keep you up all night.
It's not something you can decide.
One day you're all alone the next you're crying on the phone.

I won't live like a prisoner.
Nothing has to be so perfect.
Can you tell me was it worth it because the heart can't lie.
And even though the face may try.

Love can be deceiving but love is magic.

You find love or love will find you.
Once you fall in love you'll do anything for that love.
I'd do anything for love even if it means to wait a thousand years

Cause I know I love her and she knows that to.
If only all that would come true.

I know that she's the one.
The one who stole my heart.

Don't love to hate, let love come to you.

I sounded drunk.. LoL

Ciaoz..
________________________________________________________

-I love you, you like him-

Harsh Reality

2008-07-16T11:34:00.003+08:00

What would the worst thing be if you
took the wheel and you lost control.

Life is a rollercoaster but I hope its
a wonderful rollercoaster ride.

Yesterday was my team function or should I say
Team Chalet at Aloha Loyang. The terrace was
damn huge. Me and my intake, Jeff, Wei, Adam booked
the 2nd storey room which was equally spacious.

But the whole chalet goes to the 4 gals that so called
brightened up the function. Elly, Nad and 2 others.
They were sporting enough to crap up stupid games
that's quite enjoyable.

I just got back from the chalet without sleep since Monday.
record almost more then 48 hours without sleep.

Kinda boring post but what the hell...
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-You worth my heart-

Random

2008-07-09T15:27:00.002+08:00

I'm sitting here trying to entertain myself with this old guitar.
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far.

Hate is a strong word.
Don't love to hate and Don't hate to love.
_________________________________________________________

-I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did-

My word

2008-07-08T16:23:00.003+08:00

I'm sitting here all by myself just trying to think of something to do
Trying to think of anything just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did and
I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did

I'm so dead tired. Eventhough had a full day rest yesterday
and like really sleep. Now eventhough fresh, I still feel shagged.
Later at night accompany Fezo for a jog maybe for a run.

And now I'm gonna watch Never Back Down. My friend told me
its an awesome fighting movie. Saw the trailer and its so nice!
Maybe I'll update more later.

Take care Cheng Chin, Take care Sha, Take care peepz!

Ciaoz~
________________________________________________

-You and only you-

2008-07-04T17:39:00.003+08:00

You could be my unintended choice to live my life extended,
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

You could be the one I'll always love.

I'll be there as soon as I can but I'm busy mending
broken pieces of the life I had before.

Happy Birthday Aliff!! You're 21 and you're old!!

Yesterday went out to celebrate Aliff's b'dae with our click;
Me, Feez, Hykel, Shida, Shila and Aliff.

Met Feez and Shila early to get Aliff's gift and head out to
Penisular Plaza. After a short walk we got what we came for
and went straight to Marina Square to get Shida's gift.
Got her a scarf from ZARA.

Spent the day eating and walking and laughing and eating again.
Then it was movie time at GV. Watched Get Smart and it was
hilarious. So the day went by and we bid farewell to each other.

Reached home I on my radio and listen to Ria's 12 midnite special.
Sha accompany me. She's the one who smsed me to remind me its a
Friday nite special and I didn't know Sha was such a scary cat.
She's so kiut when she's scared.

Anyway sorry if I've been scarying you at times. Hahaha.
Get Well Soon Sha!! and I mean really well..

Miyuki is a adorable bunny

Got to run..

Ciaoz~

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-Always will be-

Confused

2008-07-02T13:00:00.005+08:00

You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
you're alone tonight

You're all I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I would give
Is everything you couldn't take

(Yesterday's sunset off Tuas checkpoint)

Everyday I hoped and prayed for a thousand more chances.
It seems that I'm approaching some kind of a downfall but
with friends around I think I'll make it through.

MUSE and Korean drama dvds been my companion for the past days.
Thanks to you I got a new drama to watch. Yey! Thanx Sha.
And I've updated ..

I think I'm gonna update more tomorrow.
Got training to go to..

Take care

Ciaoz!!
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-I dreamed of you again-

Prison

2008-06-28T14:17:00.002+08:00

I have to fucking work today!! ARGH!!!

I took leave like 4 months ago for today and why must I be called back?
I'm so freaking pissed. After one shit another shit happens. As if its my
freaking downfall. First the stupid commander shit, my stupid fine, and
some other crap.

Today Hilmie is an angry man. Hope today I get to arrest someone and
vent my anger.

How piss I am but when duty calls I have to ready myself.

Enough of shittyness.

Always look on the brightside of life..

And gosh didn't get to see Chengchin.
Got to go somewhere while Aliff went and met her.
You know you've been missed!!
Haish!!!
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-wasted dreams distant memory-

Listen you

2008-06-26T14:02:00.003+08:00

I swear that you dont have to go.
I thought I could live in your arms and spend every moment
I have with you.
Stay up all night with the stars and confess all the faith
that I had in you.

Too late, I'm sure and lonely.
Another night, another dream wasted on you.
Just be here now against me. I know you're sorry.
Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside me
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced.
If I died right now, you'd never be the same.

I wish I would stumble across the key, or break down the door
to your heart.
Forever could see us not you and me.
In my heart I know you'd help me out of the dark
and I would give my heart as an offering.

I will always remember you as you are right now to me
and I will always remember you now .

So sleep alone tonight
I can't forget you..
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-Too late, im sure-

Identities

2008-06-21T21:06:00.002+08:00

Getting on with life... Slowly..

The boat trip was so tiring.. And another trip
is up on 3rd of July. But might not be going.. Wasted..

Past few days been maximising on my training.
Saufee trained me till wanna puke but I feel that its effective.
Damn cramps now. And tomorrow still gonna have to jog.
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I feel that life's too short. If I want something I got to go for it.
If I don't wanna loose something better not loose it?
Okie, it sounds crap but I've been doing some soul searching
and it seems that I have to live my life to the fullest.

But watever it is I love myself.
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And to those pathetic infidels... Grow up..

Ciaoz~
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-Little mermaid-

Tired

2008-06-18T13:04:00.002+08:00

Damn tired....

Just reached home from my boating trip.

Finally got to see the one thing I've always wanted to see,
Raffles Lighthouse.

Gonna take a nap.

Ciaoz~~
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-I dream of you everyday-

2008-06-11T01:10:00.002+08:00

When I wake up without you,
knowing you're not there
I'm only feeling half as good
Well I'm gonna find a way

It's not like you didn't know
that I said I love you and I swear I still do

This is how you remind me of what I really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breaking
And I've been wrong, I've been down

OOoo.. Nice~
Hahaha.. Euro 2008 started already. Wee!

So more sleepless night and more soft drinks!!

All this while I've been watching it alone. Sooner or later
I'm gonna have puffy eyes and I mean swollen eyes due
to lack of sleep. So here comes Red Bull!!

Crapping about my days could be such a boring thing.
Someone told me before that Love and Life if added together
it equals to disaster. WTF..

A few of my friends agree to it but I don't know whether its true
or just an assumption. Who knows?

And tomorrow should be a boring and sucky day. Got project to do
I'm doing sentry. Again! Ken Lim!! Why torture me???

And I guess I'm gonna make sentry shift a little more fun tomorrow.
God knows what me and the boys will be doing.. Heh

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To Cheng Chin.. Next week you freE??? Catch a movie and get your
friend something for his birthday? Set?

And to Liza... HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!

All grown up my friend! Best Wishes
Fezo, Aliff and Me wish you the best!!

Hope Uni life ain't suck at all...

Friends forever!!

Ciaoz~
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-I'll wait even if it takes a thousand years-

Me against the world

2008-06-05T19:57:00.002+08:00

I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said

I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own

I'm gonna prove them wrong
Me against the world

Cheng Chin... Yeh, lets get Aliff something..
Now lets think what to buy for him..
Maybe next week??

I miss you Dearest..

The past few days was super duper tiring.
Three straight days of sleepless nights. And those three days
I got to write 2 songs about dearest. Nothing better to do right?

This weekend will be my weekend shift so both sat and sun burn.
Haiz. Sighning makes me feel much better.

Anyway, Gonna get myself an Oakley Sunglass or shades.
The whole team gonna get one each. Yey!! But its so ex.
Cheapest cost about $130. Still consider cheap coz the original
price is $300.

Since they giving Coast Guard officers about 60% off.
We really need those shades for work. Out in the sea and those
dangerous UV rays.. And it looks cool with our CG uniform.

Gonna get one!!

And my Saturday shift will be doing stupid Jetty Sentry.
I wanna Patrol!! I want play water.

Stupid Wei, Jeff and Shah and the other SCs will get to
enjoy water fights while me, Zid, and Asy let mosquito
feed our blood.

Nevermind. Before Rafael and Shahnur ORD, I will do the same boat
with them.

I'll say it again and till my last breathe hah!
I miss you like crazy! Evenmore than words could say..
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-You're my shining star-

that's what you are

there is no one like you

Leave

2008-05-31T16:05:00.003+08:00

I’m leaving never to come back again
You found somebody who does it better than I can
No more making you cry, no more gray skies...

Ouh me so random..

Oh why am I missing someone...

Dearest heart, don't leave me.
Don't make me feel so empty inside..
Miss you heart..
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-Done -

Talk is cheap

2008-05-28T19:56:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow is 29th of May.. Date due for my library book.
I think I'm going nerdy.. No offence but now I kinda love
reading books. Perhaps loads of them. My friend introduce
me to novels and perhaps poetry. Kinda weird reading poetry..

Maybe I drop by the library in the afternoon.

After work today went to Lot 1 to have early lunch cum late breakfast
with Saufee and had one of those embarrassing moments. I was carrying
the tray with our food and drinks. After placing the tray on the table,
with my itchy hands, I thought I wanna play around with the plates and
drinks like one small kid.

All of a sudden in a split second 2 cups of coke,
my coke... dropped on the floor. My friend came,"Knn, what happen?"
Me,"Nothing, I dunnoe". So paisey that we moved table.

Then I saw the
aunty clear the mess I made. I went up to her and said sorry. My bad.
I guess I'm still a kid. Just like simple plan sings:

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare

And this laptop starts to lag.. Haiz..
Wishes for tomorrow to be a fine day
and she will appear  at the library.
Hahaha.. Why am I hoping so much??
Maybe I'm missing her? Probably..

Ciaoz~
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-Don't get carried away-

Way Away

2008-05-27T11:31:00.003+08:00

Left about 1 week plus till pay day.. Yey!! 2 birthday parties coming up.
Thinking of what to buy for those babies.. HmmM...
Anything lah....

Shopping is up in my timetable... sound so metro sexual or girly but
shops are having sales!! And I need a sleeveless shirt
and loads of casual wear..

Now, gotta rush for training.. Eventhough body still aches..

And to all had just finished their O's MT... At last.. a breather...

Ciaoz!
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-Sorry's not good enough-